tags: playlist
2001
August
- 2001 Aug 8
- Lunacy
OK, so my mind isn’t quite back together yet, but I’m getting there. Really.
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- The Art of Not Wanting
Soul tripping from a tab of Tao and hit of Te.
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September
- 2001 Sep 10
- Shape of My Heart
Dropping Bombs. Hit men haven’t gotten time for love anyway.
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- The Last Day of Summer
The last day of summer always feels so cold.
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2003
January
- 2003 Jan 16
- 2001 • A Time Odyssey
“Solaris” by Stanislaw Lem, and unexpected dream, and my 2001 CD.
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August
- 2003 Aug 21
- something good is gonna happen
Finding mp3 blogs. Kate Bush “Cloudbusting”. Utah Saints “Something Good is Gonna Happen”
· Read more… - 2003 Aug 22
- kid a by radiohead
My interpretation of this awesome song.
· Read more… - 2003 Aug 22
- dream academy "life in a northern town"
These days, I’ll catch some of the lyrics of a song, and I’ll just type them into Google, and voilà! This is the song that was sampled for Dario G’s “Sunchyme”
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- radiohead "the bends"
Reviewing one of the best, and most underrated albums by Radiohead
· Read more… - 2003 Aug 28
- memes and the arrow of time
A meditation on the not-quite cyclic nature of time, and how both the linear and circular models of time may be correct simultaneously. Soundtrack: “Clocks” by Coldplay and “Time after Time” by Cyndi Lauper
· Read more… - 2003 Aug 31
- counting crows "rain king"
A song from back in the day. But the album it’s coming from is fitting: August and Everything After.
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September
- 2003 Sep 3
- a7 "piece of heaven (central seven remix)"
This song makes me think of Robotech.
· Read more… - 2003 Sep 14
- gorillaz "m1 a1"
A song that makes me think about zombie attacks. (I’m thinking of “28 Days Later”, “Resident Evil”, “Shaun of the Dead”, “Silent Hill”, or “Omega Man”)
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- outkast "hey ya"
Shake it like a Polaroid picture!
· Read more… - 2003 Sep 23
- galileo and the last day of summer
The Galileo space probe meets its end in the atmosphere of Jupiter. The [last day of summer][x1] always leaves me [cold][x2] [x1]: /2001/09/22/the-last-day-of-summer “The Last Day of Summer • 2001 Sep 22 • Foobar” [x2]: /2001/09/30/last-days “Last Days • 2001 Sep 30 • Foobar”
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- time travelin'
Back in the Bay Area. I’m like a ghost sifting through memories trapped in amber. I figure that I’m going to be alone for the rest of my life, but maybe that won’t be for very long. But trust is a prerequisite for love, so that’s clearly not going to happen. Having too much time on my hands is a good way for me to get into trouble. After seven years, the sting is starting to wear off, but it still stings. The less you have, the more you worry you’ll lose it.
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2004
March
- 2004 Mar 2
- the rain
As a coda to my rant and rave about my love life (or, more accurately, the lack thereof), I have these bits and pieces of lyrics to pop music floating through my head:
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2006
March
- 2006 Mar 5
- kai "say you’ll stay (jazzy jim remix)"
I thought I had mentioned this before, but I can’t find it in my blog archives. In any case, I swear it seems like sometimes my iPod can read what mood I’m in. On my 2 hour trip back from L.A., it kept pulling up all these down-tempo, super-chill, and melancholy, reflective songs, and while this cheesy song by a Filipino American group may not really fall into this category, it is attached to a somewhat melancholy memory.
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- everything but the girl “time after time”
I guess you could say that “Time after Time” is one of my most favorite songs, and I have different cover versions of it attached to various memories. For example, the version by INOJ is attached to the summer after graduating from college, when I tried lingering in the Bay Area, but then ended up going home in defeat. Now that was an extremely depressing time. This was also the time when A and E (whom I mentioned in the previous post) finally actually got together, and I remember hanging out with them and feeling superfluous and stupid. Ah memoreez.
· Read more… - 2006 Mar 19
- music and the oddest memories
Bizarrely, as I’m trying to sew closed a gaping wound across a toe, MTV plays the following songs:
· Read more… - 2006 Mar 24
- ladyhawke
Watching this on cable right now. The soundtrack is awesome. It sounds like a cRPG soundtrack, like an early Final Fantasy. I dig the electronic underpinnings that, while echoing the disco feel carried out of the ‘70’s into the early ‘80’s, also reminds me of the sound chips of the early microcomputers/personal computers like the SID chip of the Commodore 64 and the more primitive sound generators found in other 8-bit classic machines like the Atari 400, the Apple IIc, and the Nintendo Entertainment System.
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June
- 2006 Jun 24
- simple pleasures, small magics
Before work today, one of my chief residents was on one of the alternative music stations in town, which was bizarre and very cool. She won an hour to guest DJ and she broadcast her own playlist.
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- songs for another journey on my own
I immediately hearken to “10:15 Saturday Night” by The Cure, although I’ve long stopped waiting for the telephone to ring. It seems that that long, dark tea-time of the soul hits me long before Sunday, and it’s kind of sad that I’ve forgotten how to enjoy a weekend on my own.
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August
- 2006 Aug 4
- radiohead “street spirit (fade out)”
This song just lacerates my soul. It is the epitome of the anomie of post-modern existence. We are force fed lies, sanitized versions of tragedy, white-washed and censored versions of obscene truths, and we are made to choose between two different, polarized existences. Either you accept all the bullshit as fact, live your happy-go-lucky senseless life as a consumer of goods, or as cannon fodder for the state, nothing more than a replaceable cog in the machine, or you refuse to bow down, and earn ostracization or excommunication, indeed forcing you to fade-out from the consensual hallucination known as Reality™.
· Read more… - 2006 Aug 6
- ipod randomness
Making that familiar drive back down to San Diego, I found myself in a very sullen, sulky, and brooding mood. Maybe it’s just the fact that I have to go to work tomorrow. Back to reality, I guess. No use crying over impossibilities.
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- skye edwards "stop complaining"
I don’t know why
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but I cant seem to find the right melody today
I can’t make the words fit how I feel
I don’t know when
was the last time that I slept the whole night through
and when morning comes around I feel tired - 2006 Aug 14
- "starlight" by muse
This song reminds me of this poem
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- muse "starlight"
Let’s see if Blogger eats my post again.
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October
- 2006 Oct 15
- morrissey “will never marry”
I’m writing this to say
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In a gentle way
Thank you—but no
I will live my life as I
Will undoubtedly die—alone - 2006 Oct 21
- radiohead “go to sleep (little man being erased)”
Something for the rag and bone man
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Over my dead body
Something big is gonna happen
Over my dead body
Someone’s son or someone’s daughter
Over my dead body
This is how I end up sucked in
Over my dead body
I’m gonna go to sleep
And let this wash all over me
We don’t really want a monster taking over
Tip toe around, tie him down
We don’t want the loonies takin’ over
Tip toe around, tie him down
May pretty horses come to you as you sleep
I’m gonna go to sleep
And let this wash all over me - 2006 Oct 22
- thom yorke “analyse”
A self-fulfilling prophecy of endless possibility
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You roll in reams across the street
In algebra, in algebra - 2006 Oct 26
- the cure “untitled”
hopelessly adrift in the eyes of the ghost again
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down on my knees and my hands in the air again
pushing my face in the memory of you again
but i never know if it’s real
never know how i wanted to feel
November
- 2006 Nov 1
- finger eleven “one thing”
This is a scattered memory of driving up the Grapevine by myself, heading back to L.A. one February…
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- coldplay “see you soon”
This song stopped me cold in my tracks today, and I think I might’ve cried had it been some other time, back when I was someone else entirely.
· Read more… - 2006 Nov 3
- death cab for cutie “what sarah said”
So who’s gonna watch you die?
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December
- 2006 Dec 6
- defying gravity
Now I’m a big fan of rewriting and reinterpreting mythology and fantasy. My initial ambition as a college freshman was to take Southeast Asian myths and rewrite them in the vein of Western European myths. I’m totally into China Miéville’s subversion of the fantasy genre and using it to explore the sometimes faulty assumptions we make about capitalism and Western Civ. I really liked Michael Crichton’s Eaters of the Dead, which is a version of Beowulf told from a quite-unexpected viewpoint, and even liked the movie that it became, “The 13th Warrior”. I sometimes think that this is what underlay my childhood obsesssion with Disney animated films. I grew up listening ad nauseam to the soundtrack of Disney’s “Robin Hood” where Robin Hood and Maid Marian are foxes, Little John is a bear, and King John and his brother Richard the Lion-Hearted are literally lions. (“Oo de lally!”) I was enchanted by “The Little Mermaid” and especially “Beauty and the Beast.” One of my more recent ambitions is to write a novel based on Middle Earth after it has been completely industrialized and paved over, dealing with issues of urban sprawl, pollution, and global capitalism. As for a more small scale project, I’m trying to write a story that is really “Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs” and “The Hobbit” mashed-up together and set on a nanotechnology-permeated, post-Roman Empire-like society.
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2007
February
- 2007 Feb 25
- another moment of synchronicity
As I headed south on the 805, “Sit Down, Stand Up (Snakes and Ladders)” by Radiohead started playing on my iPod, and when it got to the part that goes “the raindrops, the raindrops, the raindrops, the raindrops…” it actually started sprinkling, and it stopped exactly when the song did.
March
- 2007 Mar 25
- the color of the sky as far as I can see is coal grey
Mostly I’m tired. This can, of course, be attributed to the fact that I was on call last night, although it’s not like I did much of anything except maybe sleep.
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April
- 2007 Apr 9
- mika “happy ending”
This is one of the happiest songs I’ve ever heard about such a depressing topic:
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May
- 2007 May 6
- mika “any other world”
In any other world
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you could tell the difference
and let it all unfurl
into broken remnants.
Smile like you mean it
and let yourself let go. - 2007 May 13
- unwell
Is this aching in my belly anxiety or dysentery? One wonders.
· Read more… - 2007 May 13
- journey "don't stop believin'"
I woke up at 3 a.m. for no good reason and couldn’t get back to sleep.
· Read more… - 2007 May 15
- glen campbell “wichita lineman”
Driving back from Harrah’s on the Rincon tribal lands, my iPod suddenly popped up ”Wichita Lineman Was a Song I Once Heard” by the KLF. (The KLF?!?) This immediately took me back to my childhood, when I couldn’t go to sleep without the radio on, and the station I would listen was the easy listening station. It used to be called KJOI 99, but now I think it’s Star 98.7. Crazy.
· Read more… - 2007 May 15
- the fray “fall away”
I am now reduced to merely posting song lyrics.
· Read more… - 2007 May 16
- alphaville “forever young”
Did you know that Tiffany did a cover of Alphaville’s song? Weirdness.
· Read more… - 2007 May 16
- phil collins “take me home”
Maybe I’m just being morbid. Maybe it’s because I just finished working in the ICU and watched plenty of people die and signed plenty of death certificates. Maybe it’s because I had dinner with (among others) someone who works for the medical examiner. Nothing like talking about people who died in sudden, unexpected, and often gruesome ways while having Japanese food. Maybe it’s because the track before this one was “Mad World” by Tears for Fears, which has the classic line “the dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had,” a song that was resurrected by Gary Jules and the movie “Donnie Darko.”
· Read more… - 2007 May 25
- in love (with a machine)
I’m seriously digging on The Hype Machine, a mp3 blog aggregator. Sure, there are probably less painful ways to try and find your favorite track currently being played by
· Read more…the Evil EmpireClear Channel, but for more of the underground, completely whacked-out stuff, you gotta check it. - 2007 May 27
- summer in the city (a flashback moment)
There are certain parts of the year that seem to get me down. That perception may simply be apophenia. A meaningless confluence of stimuli that cause me to believe there is some sort of pattern. Like listening for voices on blank cassette tapes. Or seeing the image of the Virgin Mary on a scrap of tree bark.
· Read more… - 2007 May 31
- disinformation (itunes 7.2 and itms)
At the risk of sounding like a raving, gibbering Apple fanboy, I’ve got to ask, what’s up with all the FUD? First there is the paranoia about Apple tracking you through your DRM-less $1.29 downloads, and now there’s this big deal about no longer being able to convert DRMed AACs to DRM-less MP3s (discovered via boingboing.net.)
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June
- 2007 Jun 13
- radiohead "lucky"
(Listen to it on the Hype Machine: Radiohead “Lucky” (acoustic))
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August
- 2007 Aug 16
- Marié Digby
Looks like fellow Angeleno and California Golden Bear Marié Digby is making it big time.
· Read more… - 2007 Aug 29
- nelly furtado "all good things (come to an end)"
I’ve been obsessed with song lately. I’m not sure why. It’s pretty catchy, though. Very “Dust in the Wind”-like, or maybe “Sound of Silence”-ish.
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- dream academy "please, please, please let me get what i want"
Dum spiro, spero
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- judybats "being simple"
…and I want to be good, but good is being simple. Simple is forgetting. I simply can’t forget….
· Read more… - 2007 Aug 30
- mark ronson featuring daniel merriweather "stop me"
Mark Ronson covers the Smiths.
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September
- 2007 Sep 4
- massive attack "teardrop"
I first heard this song one fevered night that I was driving to L.A. the long way around, up I-15, somewhere between Escondido and Temecula. Mix Master Mike was DJ’ing Spin Psycle.
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- the flaming lips "do you realize?"
- 2007 Sep 6
- rivermaya "himala"
It was 1997 when I first heard this song, on the island of Tablas, in the province of Romblon, awaiting a plane to take us back to Manila.
· Read more… - 2007 Sep 6
- Jocelyn Enriquez, Amber, and Ultra Naté "If You Could Read My Mind"
Nine years ago, driving down to San Diego to watch “Dogeaters” at the Mandeville Center on the UCSD campus.
· Read more… - 2007 Sep 7
- trying to achieve escape velocity (retrospective: 10 years ago)
I’m not really sure what triggered this strange mood of mine. My mind wanders back to the end of my college days, unearthing a lot of bittersweet memories. (And do I even have any memories that just have the sweet and not the bitter?)
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- even farther back
1995: Deep wounds. Ugly scars. And then: new, unfounded hopes and unfulfillable wishes. I learn a secret that, in the end, fucks me up bad, but which I am bound by honor to keep. (And would the outcome really have changed if I had betrayed it? Except for the damnation of my soul?)
· Read more… - 2007 Sep 7
- youtube candy
Before I find myself dragged back down into the pit of self-pity as I reminisce rather mawkishly, I thought I would share some mashups that I thought were particularly clever.
· Read more… - 2007 Sep 7
- arcade fire "no cars go"
I left work this morning singing that line: “Between the click of the light and the start of the dream.” Orion gleamed through the clouds. The crescent moon was rising, and Venus also glittered in the east like a jewel, heralding the rising sun in less than an hour.
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- hulogdahon (a prelude)
Summer’s beginning to give up her fight…
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- back to our regularly scheduled program
While I’m technically not on a ward month now, I’m spending about 11 hours a day in the hospital. Which is not as bad as it sounds, I guess. I dig working on the wards a lot better than working in the ED, frankly.
· Read more… - 2007 Sep 27
- last thoughts of the day
My mind has been everywhere today. I suppose one of the good things about getting older is that there is a wider field for my brain to wander. I could probably keep myself usefully amused for several days just letting my thoughts meander.
· Read more… - 2007 Sep 29
- julia roberts already made that movie
I feel like a lot of loose ends are being tied up in my life lately. I don’t know whether to be relieved, or to be sad. Or whether to be wary of the future. Every time life comes to one of these pauses, one of these lacunae, it seems that everything goes to shit.
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- september fades
This song is by Pedro Gil, whom I ended up watching a few months ago.
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- the roots "complexity"
This song seems curiously apt with regards to the thoughts flowing through my head in the last 48 hours or so. This song actually reminds me of those days when the evil resident was raping my soul and somehow it ties everything together and closes the loop.
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- hooverphonic "eden"
I really find this song haunting. And fitting, as the memories of this last summer and the summers gone before blow away upon the wind of smoke.
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October
- 2007 Oct 4
- aqualung "black hole"
I swear my iPod is becoming sentient. Somehow it always manages to pick the right song at the right moment.
· Read more… - 2007 Oct 16
- there and back again
So like the absent-minded fool that I am, I left my psychotropic medications in L.A. Because of the terrible, terrible withdrawal side effects, I was compelled to pick them up after finishing work.
· Read more… - 2007 Oct 28
- past tense
As I shot down the I-5 listening to my iPod, this song came up, bringing up memories from my first year in college, way back in 1994-1995
· Read more… - 2007 Oct 28
- changing tides
It still remains to be seen if the U.S. can be salvaged from the claws of totalitarianism, but I remember the dark days of the botched 2000 election, when the Supreme Court stripped the people of their sovereignty and selected the guy who didn’t win the election, and I remember the cynical use of the destruction of the WTC as an excuse to foment war in Iraq.
· Read more… - 2007 Oct 29
- flashback: the unit
Love is watching someone die.
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December
- 2007 Dec 10
- still chasing starlight/the relationship of music and spacetime
I think it might’ve been Sirius, the dog star, in the southern sky that lit my way tonight, like a beacon, brighter than the ambient glow of the urban sprawl before me, but I only have a faint grasp of celestialography, so I could be wrong.
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2008
January
- 2008 Jan 8
- nelly furtado "wait for you"
I'm sure I've heard this song before, but it felt like it was the first time as I drove away from the ocean and made my way onto the freeway.
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February
- 2008 Feb 10
- time marches on
This week's I-5 playlist, featuring cheesy love songs and songs to commit suicide to:
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- dreaming like water trickling through my wall of cynicism
March
- 2008 Mar 1
- flashback (the hazards of having gone to berkeley)
A week ago, it was sunny and warm, and I headed up to L.A. I was wearing my "Barack the Vote" T-shirt that my sister gave me for Christmas. I didn't realize I was running on empty until I got to Carlsbad, so I got off the freeway and stopped at the nearest gas station. All of the sudden, I got self-conscious about wearing the shirt. North County San Diego is notorious for being rabidly right-wing, and I wondered if anyone would react. But I finished filling up my tank, got back in my car, and got on the freeway. Somewhat fittingly, the next song my iPod decided to play was "Get Together" by the Youngbloods.
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April
- 2008 Apr 5
- a song in my head
As I finish off my residency, I realize that no matter how awful some of the remaining hours and the minutes can be, this experience is finite and bounded. My senior resident on my very first in-patient intern month took a sardonic aphorism from the seminal medical novel "The House of God" and added a hopeful corollary which has become something of an unspoken mantra. "They can always hurt you more, but they can't stop the clock."
· Read more… - 2008 Apr 6
- sing your melody
…with longing and wistful hopelessness, he parted from her reluctantly, out into the cold darkness. The bejeweled stars of Orion dipped headlong into the sea, and the night air made him shiver. Sometimes, the right song plays at the right moment, crystallizing a brief memory, forever remembered half-wrong and askew. But he remembers her smile.
· Read more… - 2008 Apr 6
- complexity of the global economy
This song by Wyclef Jean, Akon, Lil Wayne, and Niia seems pretty straight-forward: it's about a girl who seemed to have it all together in high school: all the guys dug her, she was in sports, and did well in school. But she ends up having to become a prostitute, in order that she and her kid can survive.
· Read more… - 2008 Apr 8
- stuck in the '80s
My iPod took me back, way back, on the drive home from work today:
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- randomly walking through YouTube
So my trip down memory lane keeps going:
· Read more… - 2008 Apr 14
- small tasks; simple promises
Even as I grow torpid and still, I remember that I promised myself that I would see the ocean today, come hell or high water. The temptation to just crash out on my bed is immense, but I know I will be a lesser person if I give in.
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- light chasing away the darkness
This song always makes me go a little teary-eyed.
· Read more… - 2008 Apr 20
- hourglass/urgency
I reached inside myself and found
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nothing there to ease the pressure of my ever worried mind.
All my powers waste away.
I fear the crazed and lonely looks the mirror's sending me these days. - 2008 Apr 21
- already the moment has passed
Driving from work. Nothing as wearying as watching the sunrise, as you're pining for your own bed.
· Read more… - 2008 Apr 22
- anticipating karaoke night
J™ reminds me of this classic chestnut, one the great theme songs of unrequited love.
· Read more… - 2008 Apr 30
- serendipity never disappoints
So apparently I've had this song sitting on my iPod for years, literally, and Sunday was the first time I ever heard it.
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May
- 2008 May 4
- at the edge of the sea
there is no one left in the world
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that i can hold onto
there is really no one left at all
there is only you
and if you leave me now
you leave all that we were
undone
there is really no-one left
you are the only one
—"Trust" by the Cure - 2008 May 4
- all i need is a map and a set of wheels
Fear and panic in the air.
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I want to be free
from desolation and despair.
And I feel like everything I saw
is being swept away
when I refuse to let you go. - 2008 May 5
- killing me softly with her song
A little more than a week ago, I watched Lea Salonga perform at Harrah's Rincon.
· Read more… - 2008 May 11
- the intersection of pop music and medicine
There are two units in the hospital that tend to get a particular song stuck in my head.
· Read more… - 2008 May 12
- pacific coast highway
So I just got back to S.D. from Harbor City, where my uncle and my godmother live. The quickest way back would involve backtracking to the 405, and then heading south directly to the 5, or via the 73 toll road:
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- wrong city/wrong season/wrong weather/no matter
This is from Brooklyn…
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- reminiscing/high school days
Whenever I hear this song, I can still feel those cold autumn early mornings after pulling an all-nighter, writing an English paper or a History paper, fully saturated with caffeine (a total of 230 mg would usually tide me over), with no one but Sluggo on KROQ to keep me company.
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- easier said than done/15 years/too little, too late
I seem to be stuck in a time warp.
· Read more… - 2008 May 13
- brain on fire
OK, so maybe it was a little counter-productive to only sleep for four hours last night. I felt compelled to finish my blog entry, even though the ending of it was probably too rushed, and a little forced. So it wasn't until 2 a.m. that I finally surrendered and went to bed. Unfortunately, I had to wake up at 6 a.m. today. (It's going to be even worse tomorrow.)
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June
- 2008 Jun 15
- i'm not here, this isn't happening
An incredibly haunting piano and vocal re-interpretation of Radiohead, entitled "How to Disappear Completely", found on Kid A
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July
- 2008 Jul 21
- the past comes bubbling up to the present
Apparently one of my neighbors is either reminiscing about the past, or feeling heartbroken, or both, because he/she was playing this song from TLC from yesteryear:
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- don't follow me/i'm lost at sea: a status update
Brand New "Millstone": a punk rock retelling of "The Rime of the Ancient Mariner"
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September
- 2008 Sep 5
- a song I wish radiohead would play again
Blowout
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- song dedication
To a woman whom I failed to communicate how I feel about
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- said it was the only solution
Sometimes I try to do things and it just doesn't work out the way I wanted to.
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I get real frustrated and I try hard to do it and I take my time and it doesn't work out the way I wanted to.
It's like I concentrate real hard and it doesn't work out
Everything I do and everything I try never turns out
It's like I need time to figure these things out - 2008 Sep 19
- where did september go?
How fitting.
· Read more… - 2008 Sep 23
- does it make sense to mourn what never was?
Since you and I never came to be—
· Read more… - 2008 Sep 27
- it's too late now, let it all go
It's never gonna be all right.
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October
- 2008 Oct 11
- at odd hours
It's a terrible thing, not being able to sleep. Tonight is the second night I've woken up around 2 a.m. in a semi-panic, not knowing where I was or how soon I had to get to work. And I don't know what's worse, the initial disorientation, or the coming to terms with hard reality.
· Read more… - 2008 Oct 19
- the land of what will never be
Don't wish. Don't start.
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Wishing only wounds the heart.
December
- 2008 Dec 3
- album leaf "always for you"
This song has apparently been sitting on my iPod since 2006. I'm sure I've accidentally listened to it once or twice, but I guess it never really registered on my consciousness. For some ill-articulated reason related to the socially-avoidant state-of-mind I've been in, I've been skipping this song whenever it came up.
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2009
February
- 2009 Feb 25
- last night i dreamt that somebody loved me
So tell me how long
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Before
The last one
2012
March
- 2012 Mar 5
- the art of not wanting
But everyday I say I'll try to make my heart be still.
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2015
February
- 2015 Feb 5
- better than a time machine (reprise)
Driving through Old Town Pasadena, my iPod plays the first track of the album "Wish" by The Cure and suddenly it's the summer between my sophomore year and junior year in high school again, and I'm feeling nostalgic about all that existential angst.
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August
- 2015 Aug 29
- Bittersweet Memories before I Met You
That moment lying in the dark except for the light from my iPad, listening to that song.
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October
- 2015 Oct 5
- Please, Please, Please Let Me Get What I Want
Still going through my old posts and I remembered this song. It's kind of been my unofficial theme song for the last decade and a half or so. I can never remember how many "please"s are in the title.
· Read more… - 2015 Oct 6
- Solo en Tí
- 2015 Oct 6
- Mashups Fo' Life
I am a sucker for any and all mashups no matter how terrible they are and a lot of them aren't terrible.
· Read more… - 2015 Oct 19
- Random Songs from the Weekend
These are the songs that have been stuck in my head all weekend
· Read more… - 2015 Oct 19
- Walking around the 99¢ Store
I've been walking to the 99¢ Store during lunch lately just for the exercise and to pick up miscellaneous and sundry items, and the music they play at this store makes me feel like I'm in a time warp.
· Read more… - 2015 Oct 19
- Songs Whose Titles I Never Knew
Honestly, I never thought I'd be the type of person who'd feel OK with singing my heart out in front of a bunch of random people in a public setting, but you really can't beat free karaoke.
· Read more… - 2015 Oct 23
- The Benghazi Committee is a Fucking Joke
Things might have turned out differently if Fox News hadn't spent the last three years screaming "Benghazi" at the top of their lungs and turning it into a punchline, but this ridiculous committee hearing is just the sad, pathetic denouement that I expected.
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2016
February
- 2016 Feb 9
- Not Talking About Millenium
Thanks to the Internet, I now know I'm not alone in hearing the line "I'm not talking 'bout moving in" as "I'm not talking 'bout Millenium"
· Read more… - 2016 Feb 9
- Green Hill Zone
There's something about this song that makes me think of the first zone of the original Sonic the Hedgehog game on the Sega Genesis.
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July
- 2016 Jul 19
- Hit the Dance Floor
Is it strange that this song with a tropical beat reminds me of my honeymoon with ミA彡 in Iceland, which is the first place I ever heard it.
· Read more… - 2016 Jul 23
- Angels Don't Let Me Down
The first time I heard "Don't Let Me Down" by the Chainsmokers featuring Daya was a couple of days before my and ミA彡's wedding and it immediately made me think of "Angels" by the XX.
· Read more… - 2016 Jul 23
- High as the Expectations
The radio has been playing the shit out of "Too Good" by Drake featuring Rihanna.
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August
- 2016 Aug 2
- Upside Down
ミA彡 and I finished "Stranger Things" last night, and one of the things that arrested me in the last episode was a song by Moby:
· Read more… - 2016 Aug 5
- Earwormed
I don't know what I did to deserve getting an Iggy Azalea earworm stuck in my head.
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