2001
Jan 2001 Feb 2001 Mar 2001 Apr 2001 May 2001 Jun 2001 Jul 2001 Aug 2001 Sep 2001 Oct 2001 Nov 2001 Dec 2001Jan
- Jan 4
- A Space Odyssey
My mind is obviously on another planet right now. The wonderful world of tyramine and other sympathomimetics. Michelle and Rodel broke up!
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- Music makes the people come together
I can’t live without aural stimulation. Why do I like “Gladiator” so much?
· Read more… - Jan 15
- Calm
Am I nothing but a clockwork orange? Louis-Ferdinand Céline. Calvin and Hobbes and the Myth of Sisyphus.
· Read more… - Jan 17
- Before I Lay Me Down to Sleep
More Calvin and Hobbes. Crackers and script-kiddies. More music. Princesses and unicorns.
· Read more… - Jan 17
- Trembling
Holy mother of God! Why am I trembling? Something like joy courses through my veins, but the tears are waiting to fall. Will it be like this for the rest of my waking hours, to stand still, lost in a fog of indecision, while happiness is something that happens to other people?
· Read more… - Jan 18
- Bleakness
Would I change a thing? I guess not, when it comes down to it. Well, not at the juncture that was presented to me.
· Read more… - Jan 19
- Retrospect
This entry is just completely random. Oh, and they aren’t kidding about weddings and funerals.
· Read more… - Jan 20
- Snowfields and Inspiration
How taking a drive gives me these completely random ideas
· Read more… - Jan 22
- Histology and Matt Groening
Why don’t people care about scientific accuracy? I give Matt Groening props.
· Read more… - Jan 24
- Panem et Circenses
Watching TV makes me think of the fall of the Roman Empire, the bread, the circuses, the orgies, the vomitoriums. I guess it's like riding a waterfall [into a cesspool]. TV is an honest-to-God sewer.
· Read more… - Jan 26
- Technochaos
“What is real?” asked Morpheus. A quick endocrinology snippet. (Learn something really nerdy and impress your friends.)
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Feb
- Feb 1
- Sunlight
It's really just the sunlight, isn't it? I really should get evaluated. I have to learn how to plan things better, too. Maybe I'll get a [PDA] after all?
· Read more… - Feb 8
- End of Week One
False spring, tech woes, wisdom teeth, “Snatch”, the RIAA, and Ebola.
· Read more… - Feb 10
- High
I want to yell obscenities, not because I'm pissed off or anything, I just think that the world is deserving of obscenities.
· Read more… - Feb 12
- Non-linear and Unpredictable
Why I must force life to be linear and predictable, I do not know, but it is surely the root cause of much of my unhappiness. It is unfortunate that it is easier to be miserable than to be content, but like I'm implying, life really isn't all that linear.
· Read more… - Feb 12
- Another Unsent Letter
You saved my life, I think. I was seriously ready to give up hope completely—I knew that if I went on for another month without things turning around, I didn't want to keep going. But then, by sheer chance, you showed up in my life and taught me what I was going through was (relatively and loosely-speaking) normal, and that something would turn up eventually, and that I wasn't alone. I'm not sure I've used what you've taught me wisely, but I do know that I'm in your debt.
· Read more… - Feb 14
- The Ides of February
Valentine’s Day blows. French movies are awesome. Drug movies are quickly becoming my favorite. Coldplay isn’t too bad. How could I resist an album whose first track is entitled “Don’t Panic”?
· Read more… - Feb 15
- Sunlight and the Ocean
Santa Monica, Venice, high school memories, and my daily requirement of sunlight.
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- Feb 19
- Without Rhyme or Reason
I feel restless and cramped. Caged, really, with no apparent hope for escape. I cannot even fantasize my way out of this madness, short of hospitalization. Maybe [St. John's wort] will help again, though. I cannot stand So Cal February gloom. I think maybe there are only a few months I can endure.
· Read more… - Feb 19
- Full of Shit
…my mind is notorious for concocting details after the fact. I'm just like my dad.
· Read more… - Feb 20
- Dreaming of Rhyme
Bleh. I dreamnt of [redacted] last night… as I am wont to disclaim, it was nothing perverted. If I were a little more emotional, or if I wasn't so tapped out and bled dry, I might have wept upon waking, but everything is just too little, too late, and what the fuck am I doing here surrounded by people I do not trust, people who would probably sell me if it would turn them a profit.
· Read more… - Feb 23
- Without Rhyme or Reason
Am I a moron or what? My life is like a diluted, bawlderized version of Louis-Ferdinand Céline’s. (My other role model is, megalomaniacally, José Rizal. Frighteningly, I would say Céline’s life is the cheerier of the two.) I would probably never make it as a writer, though. I can always seem to find a Cure song that precisely expresses my misery.
· Read more… - Feb 24
- The Terran Confederacy
Starship Troopers and Starcraft. Should I join the Navy? I got a recruitment packet from the Marines once, but I’ve watched “Full Metal Jacket.” I’d probably end up just like Private Pyle.
· Read more… - Feb 25
- Please, Please Let Me Get What I Want
Good times for a change. See the life I’ve had would make a good man bad. The Art Institute. Mawage. How water-lilies can drive you insane. Voluptuousness and the Crusades.
· Read more… - Feb 27
- Crushed
I redecorated. Whatcha think? Mardi Gras. Unmotivated. Fate wins.
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Mar
- Mar 1
- Waiting for Spring
Fight the Power. Trust-bust the RIAA. You go, Courtney Love.
· Read more… - Mar 2
- The Bard Was a Stoner
Puts A Midsummer Night’s Dream in a different light, doesn’t it?
· Read more… - Mar 5
- rm -rf *
Can you get high on capsaicin? Texas Hold’em and Lady Luck. Why, oh, why don’t I keep better backups? Existentialism. I am so terribly lonely at this point, and I don’t think there will be an end to this misery. Ah well.
· Read more… - Mar 8
- Namespaces
I spent much of the week basically retagging journal entries, rewriting stylesheets, and figuring out makefiles. You won't notice much of a difference and sometimes I wonder why I bothered, but hopefully it'll make things easier in the future.
· Read more… - Mar 11
- Revolution and Martyrdom
A poem by Benigno Aquino. Lent and martyrdom. Dogeaters. Sometimes I just want to weep for the world.
· Read more… - Mar 22
- Eleven Days
Who needs illegal drugs? Thinking with my sacral nerves again. (God, this med school thing is just encouraging my already warped personality) The maganda magazine archive. Journey to the End of the Night (Would it be translated as Paglalakbay Magdamag? I am just obsessed with that word now….)
· Read more… - Mar 23
- Reading Books, Nearsightedness, and Nerdiness
Frighteningly, there actually is a biological process that explains the correlation between bookishness and wearing glasses. (The rest of the chain of events that cements one's social standing as a nerd is a conjectural adventure into psychology which I would rather not take…)
· Read more… - Mar 24
- Flushed Down the Toilet
Unclogging the toilet. The edge of civilization. God I’m pathetic.
· Read more… - Mar 26
- Procrastination
Redesigned again, if you noticed. I'm willling to do anything as long as it's not what I'm supposed to be doing. I'm waiting for my brother and my sister to come and visit me… due to my bizarre reasoning (M:G's song "No Sense of Reason" is now playing through my head…), they are arriving before I take my exam. Because of my full-grown phobia of airplanes, I keep imagining horrible things, but what can I do, life is like that, you really just have to keep your fingers crossed.
· Read more… - Mar 27
- Remembering and Losing
The hazards of being unable to forget. Luck and losing.
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Apr
- Apr 1
- Happy New Year
April is the cruelest month. Spring is teasing me. I hate how desolate the Midwest is, although I wouldn’t mind actually living in Chicago. I finally found a Playstation 2. I had a lot of clever things to say, but I can’t get them to come out.
· Read more… - Apr 1
- Fear and Loathing in North Chicago
Daylight Saving Time is some sort of weird mind-control thing—I feel slightly drugged—does melatonin really have psychotropic effects? What do I watch next to continue on with my Benicio del Toro marathon? Capitalism has reached the metastatic phase and the end point is assured. The real issue is how do we deal with the meltdown? (Hint: I’m not talking about the Dow Jones here.)
· Read more… - Apr 2
- A Quote from JLB
A quote about hell and insanity.
· Read more… - Apr 3
- Disarray
When will I ever learn to leave well enough alone. How the Mafia, the Simpsons, and my brother and my sister taught me the importance of family. Even when I want to strangle them. (I am not a violent guy. Really.)
· Read more… - Apr 4
- Pfft… Just Like That
Money, love, family, and the Simpsons.
· Read more… - Apr 5
- Netritus
I clearly have not gotten enough sleep. I am again coining nonsense words like netritus (Internet detritus).
· Read more… - Apr 6
- Zzap! (The Beauty of Resignation)
Lightning. I give up. For now.
· Read more… - Apr 8
- Passion
Very bad translations, corporate doom, and the mutual exclusiveness of an Empire and a future
· Read more… - Apr 9
- You Gotta Know When to Fold 'Em
Show me your poker face! You call that a poker face! Witchhazel, styptic, and death by crucifixion in the ICD-9 manual. Normalcy is basically impossible at this juncture.
· Read more… - Apr 10
- If I Don't Believe in It, It Will Go Away
Money, money, money, money… money!! Fuck capitalism. Sony, why are you trying to kill me? I am definitely a hack writer who couldn’t pull of a decent plot line if my life depended on it.
· Read more… - Apr 12
- Code
I’m glad I’m friends with whom I’m friends with. As cheesy as it sounds, it’ll all work out in the end. Somehow. And a man’s gotta do what a man’s gotta do. On another note… well, why not. Just spill it. This was all just a test of the emergency broadcast system.
· Read more… - Apr 13
- Irresistible Force
Adding more shit to the crapper known as the Internet.
· Read more… - Apr 14
- Piss and Vinegar (I Am the Anonymous Coward)
The Free Speech Movement at Berkeley. Rescind SP-1/SP-2 and restore affirmative action. Macs vs Wintel, the neverending saga. (The penguin hides in waiting.) Flame people who send essentialist lists of Filipino and Filipino-American characteristics until their keyboards catch on fire.
· Read more… - Apr 15
- The Colon
This family thing is really getting to me. Maybe it’s all biological? I am a clockwork orange after all….
· Read more… - Apr 16
- When?
Snow in April.
· Read more… - Apr 18
- Accumulata
I really think I hate being happy. (“Life. Hate it or loathe it, you can’t ignore it.”) Some other random things that I must dump out of my brain before they contaminate everything.
· Read more… - Apr 21
- Shrugging Off Existentialism
Philosophy and abstractions. Low self-esteem due to a superiority complex. The balance of opposing forces. The mammalian inability to be precise. Why can’t I be normal?
· Read more… - Apr 22
- Contradictions, Contraindications, Mental Masturbation
Recursive discursive meta-meditation. Blog culture. Oops, I didn’t get to it. Why won’t you listen to me?
· Read more… - Apr 22
- Church on Time
Random oscillations of sound waves
· Read more… - Apr 23
- Convergence
Pancreatitis sucks. Getting to Europa via Antarctica, the International Space Station, and Mars.
· Read more… - Apr 24
- Killing Time
I am still on edge, just waiting for catastrophe. What's wrong with me? I really should cut back on the caffeine… damn physiological dependency….
· Read more… - Apr 25
- The Final Frontier
Space exploration. The dangers of information and revisionist history. The need for expansion. A way to use the military for peaceful means.
· Read more… - Apr 26
- I Can't Let You Do That, Dave
A server on the Internation Space Station crashes. A passage on Heinrich Klüver
· Read more… - Apr 26
- Fear of Flying
My definitions of fun and friendship. Basically, what I want out of life.
· Read more… - Apr 27
- Average Wait Time—15 Minutes
Standing, stations, status….
· Read more… - Apr 27
- Guessing about the Geography
I thought I had given up on this, what with the rationale for this monolithic screed having evaporated two months ago and the fact that I have brought my madness online, but I guess unless I finally do get a laptop, I'm going to have to put my thoughts somewhere when I'm on a trip. And I did promise to use up all the paper in this notebook anyway.
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- Apr 29
- The Flipside of Despair
Hope is nothing but the flipside of despair
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running on empty, still, something
burning like acid, chilling like frost
veins all tapped out, and yet you still bleed
you lie there all tingling
upon bloodstained sheets
no game left to play, the dice always come up snake-eyes
and still your eyes flutter open
with the kiss of the sunlight - Apr 30
- Words Come Unbidden
I did not want to write the words
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come unbidden
did not want to give form, give life
to the shapeless nightmare haunting my dreams
and yet the words still come flowing
like waves, like the ebb and flow
of blood welling from a slit throat
oozing with every rattling breath
May
- May 3
- Anterograde Amnesia
Memories. From the corner of my mind. (John Krickfalusi’s rendition)
· Read more… - May 6
- And Knowing Is Half the Battle
Science ruined my life. Hehe. Would she have loved me if I had given it up?
· Read more… - May 6
- The Man of the Stain (The Selfish Meme)
Music is flowing through my brain. I suppose I ought to be trying to remember something I have long forgotten….
· Read more… - May 6
- Suck and Burn
OMG I am such a GEEK. No wonder I can’t get a date.
· Read more… - May 9
- The Best Part of Friendship
Ask my sister about this one. I have no idea why it popped into my head.
· Read more… - May 16
- The End of It All
In the end of it all, I am simply a moron, and I've come so close to just accepting it, but foolish, insane pride always gets me to reconsider. I mean, it really didn't change a damn thing, even with a pretty girl sitting beside me. I don't even want to give voice to my incredible sense of frustration with myself. I could almost imagine my soul yelling and screaming, pounding at the doors of my heart, only to collapse weeping with despair.
· Read more… - May 16
- I Would've, If Only…
So Long and Thanks for All the Fish. We apologize for the inconvenience.
· Read more… - May 31
- Chicago, Los Angeles, San Diego, Sacramento, Boston, New York City
Everywhere at once.
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Jun
- Jun 5
- I Love L.A.
Thoughts about Los Angeles. (To live and die in L.A.? Well, maybe….)
· Read more… - Jun 10
- How Can I Stop Pining?
Steroid hormones are powerful, powerful things. Just how desperate can a man get, I wonder.
· Read more… - Jun 11
- Rearticulation (or Disarticulation?)
No, what I mean to say is… that’s not what I meant, not what I meant at all….
· Read more… - Jun 12
- Book Report
Beauty. Unicorns. Reality.
· Read more… - Jun 18
- Physician, Heal Thy Self
The wound inside my heart.
· Read more… - Jun 20
- Hell
Gary Larson. Charles Bukowski. Louis-Ferdinand Céline. Say hi to Satan for me. I’ll be there shortly.
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Jul
- Jul 13
- City of Angels
An excursus on American cities.
· Read more… - Jul 30
- The City that Doesn't Sleep and Other Ramblings
New York and a few random epiphanies.
· Read more… - Jul 30
- Technical Difficulties
Why does this exist?
· Read more… - Jul 31
- New York City — Episode VI
My sixth trip to New York City
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Aug
- Aug 2
- Chicagoland Redux
Escapades in the middle of nowhere.
· Read more… - Aug 3
- Anno 3 in Exilio (An Acute Bout of Homesickness)
Where in the hell did this come from. Some random eruptions from the subconscious.
· Read more… - Aug 3
- What, Me Worry?
I can pull wild explanations and rationalizations out of my ass all day. I think they’re for the most part true as far as I can see, but I can understand how it all looks like bullshit in the end.
· Read more… - Aug 4
- Thoughts About Ben Hur
Random movie pick. It was either this or Spartacus.
· Read more… - Aug 4
- Beautiful Day
A day in Chicago.
· Read more… - Aug 8
- Schroedinger's Limbic System
Perspective is hard to achieve if you’re hallucinating.
· Read more… - Aug 8
- Some Bizarre Amalgamation
I dreamt of an apartment, or a house, that was some bizarre amalgamation of my current apartment and of Joce's apartment. It was in the middle of nowhere, like, even less civilized than where I actually am right now. Or at least that was the first impression I got. It was actually similar to the neighborhood I dreamt about once, that was kind of like Glassell Park, except it was more ritzy, and Division St. was actually a major thoroughfare, but that's another dream which I only remember snatches from. (There was a church, like St. Dominic's, except darker, and the priests wore brown habits, looking a little like Jedi Knights.) Anyway, the golf course was still there, but there was also a little road where cars were parked. I think it might have adjoined an abandoned swimming pool…. As I write this, all these memories of other dreams are flooding into my mind. Wasn't the pool near the coast, where Santa Monica is supposed to be? Is this the same world I dreamt of, where I drove down the Pasadena Freeway to get to the beach, but instead of Santa Monica, it reminded me more of Moro Bay….?
· Read more… - Aug 8
- Lunacy
OK, so my mind isn’t quite back together yet, but I’m getting there. Really.
· Read more… - Aug 10
- I Bleed Myself Dry
Life is a highway. I want to drive it all night long.
· Read more… - Aug 15
- Metaphysics on a Gloomy Day
The fruits of meditation. Don’t say I didn’t warn you.
· Read more… - Aug 16
- Where is Here?
Nothing is making much sense right now, and yet I’m still hoping for a specific outcome, no matter how far removed from reality it might be. This is where “What-If” leads you if you’re not careful, I suppose.
· Read more… - Aug 17
- Gods and Heroes
Pondering. Relationships. Godhood. Loki. Chaos.
· Read more… - Aug 17
- The Name of Things
Almost ought to count. Because what is “almost” here might just be “reality” somewhere-somewhen else.
· Read more… - Aug 18
- Unreal City
Part I:
· Read more… - Aug 18
- Dreaming
Are you supposed to believe in dreams? Not wishes or hopes or aspirations or anything like that—these are things from the waking world. But actual dreams: the kaleidoscopic menagerie of images running around your subconscious, where disbelief is not only suspended, but quite possibly expelled and turned over to the authorities. Where everything is true, even when it isn’t or can’t possibly be. *sigh*
· Read more… - Aug 18
- Eternal and Stateless (A Tale of Pepcid AC)
Which way to go? Some other random stuff.
· Read more… - Aug 19
- Amnesiac
I’m a reasonable man, get off my case, get off my case, get off my case. Hahahahahaha!!!
· Read more… - Aug 19
- Last Night's Show
It was snowing in August, and my brother and my sister were with me in North Chicago. There was some driving up and down the I-5, and my sister's friend Abigail figured into the picture somehow. Parts of Milpitas flickered in and out. We rode a plane that had to taxi from Sacramento to… somewhere. Maybe Stockton? There was a freeway sign that read US-385 Sacramento. Altogether, it was pretty calming, although I do miss my brother and my sister.
· Read more… - Aug 19
- Life and Limb for a Sausage McMuffin
I got better. The music helps.
· Read more… - Aug 20
- 3rd Person Pseudo-omniscient
More random fragments. Somedays I scare even myself.
· Read more… - Aug 20
- Trust
The Cure's Wish is an excellent album for the pining heart. Besides the obvious songs like "To Wish Impossible Things", "A Letter to Elise", and "High", there's this beauty, which is likely to completely unman me if I get drunk enough.
· Read more… - Aug 22
- Semi-Charmed Kind of Life
Random Chance strikes again. (In the end, I suppose it all evens out, and nothing changes. It sort of frightens me thinking about what sort of horrific situation I’d be in if I didn’t have this meager sort of luck.) If I had met him just a couple of years ago, I would’ve been a writer for sure, damn the consequences.
· Read more… - Aug 26
- The Art of Not Wanting
Soul tripping from a tab of Tao and hit of Te.
· Read more… - Aug 30
- Words Get in the Way
I keep forgetting what I want to do.
· Read more… - Aug 31
- I Wish I Were in Glendale (A Case of Caffeine Withdrawal)
The word for the month: “unsustainable.” I won’t be home for at least another two months. How can I possibly survive without caffeine?
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Sep
- Sep 1
- Septembers and LotR
Get up, get up—it’s the first of the month…. Memories. From the corner of my mind…. It’s time to read the trilogy again.
· Read more… - Sep 2
- Wizard's School
Ursula K Le Guin. The Wizard of Earthsea. We are living in a postmodern world where everything has already been created, so everything is de facto derivative….
· Read more… - Sep 2
- Freeciv
Study break: half an hour of Freeciv. Half an hour. Sure
· Read more… - Sep 4
- Jedi Mind Tricks
Practicing brinksmanship with myself. (Thoughts of Doomsday Devices and running amok floating through my head.) Freedom is just another word for “nothing to lose.”
· Read more… - Sep 5
- I Dreamt That My Sister Was Getting Married
I dreamt that my sister was getting married, and I couldn't decide what I wanted to wear. The time was running out (the ever ticking clock is a recurring theme in my dreams, and maybe even my life…) and I kept looking in the closet for a tie that I didn't own, and I couldn't get my shirt and my pants to match—I think they may have been changing colors without me realizing it. Then my mom started hassling me about running out of time, and all these depressing thoughts started to fill my head, and I got pissed off and yelled at my mom. And despite the fact that the wedding was within hours, we ended up going to Lake Elizabeth to pick up my aunt and godfather, and it didn't look like we'd make it to the wedding on time. And I remember my last conscious thought before waking up was: "Why can I never make it anywhere on time?"
· Read more… - Sep 5
- On the Edge of Ruin (How The Simpsons Made Me Cry)
I mutter about philosophy and spirituality while the chasm yawns beneath me.
· Read more… - Sep 8
- Unsustainable
An eruption of brain farts. Nothing really interesting today.
· Read more… - Sep 10
- Shape of My Heart
Dropping Bombs. Hit men haven’t gotten time for love anyway.
· Read more… - Sep 11
- September 11, 2001
There are no words I can write. I try reaching down to find something that might give clear meaning, but all I can think of are the thousands of voices silenced forever.
- Sep 12
- Choose Life
Do the right thing.
· Read more… - Sep 13
- 25
My mind is everywhere. I am trying to find hope. It’s there somewhere, I just have to keep believing.
· Read more… - Sep 15
- Peace on Earth
Venting. Thank God for the sane people in this world.
· Read more… - Sep 15
- The Post-WTC World
What will be written in the history books, I wonder?
· Read more… - Sep 17
- Still Searching for Words
In reality, nothing ever fits right, and the words all come out wrong, but you’ve got to try anyway.
· Read more… - Sep 19
- The Oath
Why I feel the way I feel, right or wrong.
· Read more… - Sep 22
- The Last Day of Summer
The last day of summer always feels so cold.
· Read more… - Sep 27
- Debacle
Self-pity at 4 a.m. Yes, I could’ve gone home, and none of this would’ve ever happened.
· Read more… - Sep 30
- Last Days
More sophistry and philosophy. I guess I really am depressed. ECT, here I come.
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Oct
- Oct 1
- First of the Month
The surest thing about luck is that it will change.
· Read more… - Oct 5
- Some of My Best Friends are Women…
Let’s just say that it’s been a long week and circumstance has been rapidly draining me of any semblance of optimism. I know that things really don’t change just because you want them to, but it’s not the easiest thing to accept that this is the way things are supposed to be.
· Read more… - Oct 6
- Like the Weather
Sunlight is my bestest friend.
· Read more… - Oct 7
- Nowhere to Run
More Charles Bukowski. I’m running out of words.
· Read more… - Oct 10
- Bits and Pieces
Totally random shit.
· Read more… - Oct 14
- Contractions
Concentric circles. The space gets smaller and smaller, but it’s not bad if you can get used to it.
· Read more… - Oct 14
- Follow that Link
It’s war, and I’m not entirely sure “normalcy” is what we should be seeking. For those who really believe in Freedom, it’s time to get moving.
· Read more… - Oct 16
- And Justice for All?
What date will mark the beginning of the end, I wonder? Do I dare hope that Freedom will once more prevail, and that the Great Experiment will live on?
· Read more… - Oct 17
- Last Night Radiohead Saved My Life (One Thing Leads to Another)
Sleep deprivation and a classic case of flight of ideas. Thank God for Thom Yorke and his merry men.
· Read more… - Oct 19
- High Intensity White Noise (Flight of Ideas)
No I’m not crazy. Yet. God give me strength.
· Read more… - Oct 22
- I Read the News Today, Oh Boy
TV really does rot your brain. Shouldn’t capitalism be subservient to democracy and not the other way around?
· Read more… - Oct 23
- One to Go
To Infinity and Beyond! Get paid for lying in bed for thirty days straight.
· Read more… - Oct 24
- Jack the Ripper
Johnny Depp, laudanum and absinthe, pathology and clinical neuroscience, Freemasonry. It’s got it all.
· Read more… - Oct 26
- I Don't Want No One Minute Blog
I’m done. It’s snowing. I’m outta here.
· Read more… - Oct 31
- Cutting at Oblique Angles (Doing Things the Hard Way)
I like to organize things, even memories, landfill style, one stratum at a time.
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Nov
- Nov 1
- All Saints
Breasts. Testicles. Electroconvulsive therapy.
· Read more… - Nov 7
- Roads
Journey to the Past.
· Read more… - Nov 8
- Drama and Desperation
Can we say bipolar disorder? So high you can’t get over it. So low you can’t get under it. But I already knew what I needed to know. For some reason I just forgot. Added bonus: a little microbiology lesson.
· Read more… - Nov 10
- Whelm
Neither under or over.
· Read more… - Nov 15
- Brown Buffalo
¡Viva la Revolucion! Mabuhay ang Himagsikan! More and more, I’m believing that we’re fighting a common struggle that transcends race, religion, social class, or whatever axis you want to devise. Are you a cockroach or an exterminator? The conquered or the conqueror? In other words, are you for or against humanity?
· Read more… - Nov 19
- Pandora's Box
A soap opera is brewing. (At least in my head.) Maybe I should just stick to my “Hear no evil, see no evil” policy.
· Read more… - Nov 21
- Fragged and Shagged
Bits and pieces of me keep passing out.
· Read more… - Nov 24
- Just Look At The Sky
With all this talk of drama and all, I have suddenly realized what I miss the most.
· Read more… - Nov 29
- Is It Real?
Vague as usual. Where is my mind.
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Dec
- Dec 1
- The Devil's Playground
Back to the art of not wanting. Oh, but how my heart aches.
· Read more… - Dec 3
- My Random Self
More insane garbage spewing out of my mind. Anything to pass the time more quickly. I can’t wait to go home.
· Read more… - Dec 4
- But Not Yet
Serious weirdness all around.
· Read more… - Dec 5
- The Edge of Decision
Drive.
· Read more… - Dec 8
- insomnia
Deep, depressing thoughts at 4:30 a.m.
· Read more… - Dec 11
- Alanganin
Am I a failure? You can’t fail if you don’t try. (As Homer Simpson once said, “Trying is the first step to failure.”)
· Read more… - Dec 31
- It's the End of the World as We Know It
Time marches on.
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