2013
Mar 2013 Apr 2013 May 2013 Jul 2013 Aug 2013 Sep 2013 Oct 2013Mar
- Mar 29
- clarity
I've been kind of obsessed with this song.
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Apr
- Apr 9
- what if?
It took me a really long time to learn this, but I finally realized that asking "what if?" unilaterally makes no sense. Because it doesn't matter if it never crossed her mind.
· Read more… - Apr 10
- thinking about starting a new blog
I don't know why I thought the domain name highpoweredmutant.com would still be available.
· Read more… - Apr 17
- Middle-Earth vs. Earthsea
Both J.R.R. Tolkien and Ursula K. Le Guin call their respective fantasy universes Eä/Éa. Coincidence?
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May
- May 21
- the last gleam of sunlight
There is something about the final brilliant moment of the day, right before the sun dips below the hilltop behind my house, that really puts me in a weird, contemplative mood. My iPod decides to start playing a Hikaru Utada song.
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Jul
- Jul 27
- what's wrong with performance-enhancing drugs?
The ultracynical part of me thinks we should just let athletes use performance-enhancing drugs. Yes, it might seriously maim or kill them, but that's what they're getting paid millions of dollars for anyway, to potentially wreck their bodies for our entertainment.
· Read more… - Jul 29
- i dreamt about the POTUS
So I should write this down before I totally forget: Last night I dreamt that me and Barack Obama got kidnapped by a couple of Filipino gangsters working for the Triad. (Don't ask me where Secret Service was.) We managed to outsmart the gangsters, but had to steal a limo to get away. For some reason no one recognized the POTUS at all.
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- pissed off
(╯°□°）╯︵ ┻━┻
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- no vacation for you
I guess I'm not going to Santo Domingo, either.
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Aug
- Aug 4
- everything is political
Descriptive/positive statements may or may not be political (although there are those who argue that epistemologies based on descriptivism/positivity are inherently political.) But prescriptive/normative statements (explicit or implied) are always political.
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Sep
- Sep 30
- i don't do well with people
So the (perhaps post-hoc) rationale was that I wasn't there to pick-up on women, I was there to hang out with my cousins.
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Oct
- Oct 5
- the last days of sunlight
One day shall come a dawn where I do not see the sunset
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a summer after which I need not endure the autumn
my last memories will be of the hot breath of the Santa Ana winds
and the acrid reek of smoke from the raging wildfires
and bright sunlight without end.
Until we meet again, my friend. - Oct 5
- it's all bullshit
I could be coping better. This is not going well at all.
· Read more… - Oct 5
- life. don't talk to me about life.
I'm sitting here in the dark, totally drunk, recounting my failures and losses. There are a lot of places where it went totally wrong, but I find myself lingering on one of the milestones that I choose to remember. A. I loved you in my fashion. But that is neither here nor there.
· Read more… - Oct 6
- on-going
I am so tired but I can't sleep. Wonderful.
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- who's going to watch you die
I think the worst part about watching death—even just the death of an ill-tempered and anxious dog who lived a long life of almost 15 years, who had deteriorated to the point where he couldn't even stand up to take a drink of water or even to move out of his own filth—is that you know for a fact it's going to happen again and again, unless you happen to go first.
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- some say because it's over
When my cousin died all of the sudden without warning about seven years ago just after we started reconnecting, I listened to this song a lot.
· Read more… - Oct 8
- grief
I'm totally getting the auditory hallucination thing that I've read some pet owners get.
· Read more… - Oct 11
- silver linings
At least Angel doesn't have to be cold anymore.
· Read more… - Oct 11
- the kick
I dreamt Angel had gotten out through the gate somehow. I asked him "What are you doing out here? How did you get through the gate?" Then my brain went "Oh, I'm dreaming" and I immediately got booted out of that level of the dream.
· Read more… - Oct 21
- how i hate the night
I wonder how long it will take me to be able to go to sleep without second-guessing the decision to euthanize the family dog and without needing antihistamines and/or alcohol.
· Read more… - Oct 26
- feeling helpless in the midst of suffering and death
"If you don't have much soul left and you know it, you still got soul." — Charles Bukowski
· Read more… - Oct 31
- beginnings and endings
My sister picked up Angel in front of the Sav-On down the hill (long before CVS had bought it) when she was just a senior in high school. Some kid was selling puppies for $10. It must have been sometime after Halloween, and we always used Halloween as his birthday (although we never really knew.) We wondered if she had taken him too soon from his mother. He fit on the palm of my hand, and he wouldn't eat and we were certain he was going to die. But eventually he figured it out. For the longest time, he needed to be supervised, otherwise he wouldn't finish his food.
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