Aug 2001
- Aug 2
- Chicagoland Redux
Escapades in the middle of nowhere.
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- Anno 3 in Exilio (An Acute Bout of Homesickness)
Where in the hell did this come from. Some random eruptions from the subconscious.
· Read more… - Aug 3
- What, Me Worry?
I can pull wild explanations and rationalizations out of my ass all day. I think they’re for the most part true as far as I can see, but I can understand how it all looks like bullshit in the end.
· Read more… - Aug 4
- Thoughts About Ben Hur
Random movie pick. It was either this or Spartacus.
· Read more… - Aug 4
- Beautiful Day
A day in Chicago.
· Read more… - Aug 8
- Schroedinger's Limbic System
Perspective is hard to achieve if you’re hallucinating.
· Read more… - Aug 8
- Some Bizarre Amalgamation
I dreamt of an apartment, or a house, that was some bizarre amalgamation of my current apartment and of Joce's apartment. It was in the middle of nowhere, like, even less civilized than where I actually am right now. Or at least that was the first impression I got. It was actually similar to the neighborhood I dreamt about once, that was kind of like Glassell Park, except it was more ritzy, and Division St. was actually a major thoroughfare, but that's another dream which I only remember snatches from. (There was a church, like St. Dominic's, except darker, and the priests wore brown habits, looking a little like Jedi Knights.) Anyway, the golf course was still there, but there was also a little road where cars were parked. I think it might have adjoined an abandoned swimming pool…. As I write this, all these memories of other dreams are flooding into my mind. Wasn't the pool near the coast, where Santa Monica is supposed to be? Is this the same world I dreamt of, where I drove down the Pasadena Freeway to get to the beach, but instead of Santa Monica, it reminded me more of Moro Bay….?
· Read more… - Aug 8
- Lunacy
OK, so my mind isn’t quite back together yet, but I’m getting there. Really.
· Read more… - Aug 10
- I Bleed Myself Dry
Life is a highway. I want to drive it all night long.
· Read more… - Aug 15
- Metaphysics on a Gloomy Day
The fruits of meditation. Don’t say I didn’t warn you.
· Read more… - Aug 16
- Where is Here?
Nothing is making much sense right now, and yet I’m still hoping for a specific outcome, no matter how far removed from reality it might be. This is where “What-If” leads you if you’re not careful, I suppose.
· Read more… - Aug 17
- Gods and Heroes
Pondering. Relationships. Godhood. Loki. Chaos.
· Read more… - Aug 17
- The Name of Things
Almost ought to count. Because what is “almost” here might just be “reality” somewhere-somewhen else.
· Read more… - Aug 18
- Unreal City
Part I:
· Read more… - Aug 18
- Dreaming
Are you supposed to believe in dreams? Not wishes or hopes or aspirations or anything like that—these are things from the waking world. But actual dreams: the kaleidoscopic menagerie of images running around your subconscious, where disbelief is not only suspended, but quite possibly expelled and turned over to the authorities. Where everything is true, even when it isn’t or can’t possibly be. *sigh*
· Read more… - Aug 18
- Eternal and Stateless (A Tale of Pepcid AC)
Which way to go? Some other random stuff.
· Read more… - Aug 19
- Amnesiac
I’m a reasonable man, get off my case, get off my case, get off my case. Hahahahahaha!!!
· Read more… - Aug 19
- Last Night's Show
It was snowing in August, and my brother and my sister were with me in North Chicago. There was some driving up and down the I-5, and my sister's friend Abigail figured into the picture somehow. Parts of Milpitas flickered in and out. We rode a plane that had to taxi from Sacramento to… somewhere. Maybe Stockton? There was a freeway sign that read US-385 Sacramento. Altogether, it was pretty calming, although I do miss my brother and my sister.
· Read more… - Aug 19
- Life and Limb for a Sausage McMuffin
I got better. The music helps.
· Read more… - Aug 20
- 3rd Person Pseudo-omniscient
More random fragments. Somedays I scare even myself.
· Read more… - Aug 20
- Trust
The Cure's Wish is an excellent album for the pining heart. Besides the obvious songs like "To Wish Impossible Things", "A Letter to Elise", and "High", there's this beauty, which is likely to completely unman me if I get drunk enough.
· Read more… - Aug 22
- Semi-Charmed Kind of Life
Random Chance strikes again. (In the end, I suppose it all evens out, and nothing changes. It sort of frightens me thinking about what sort of horrific situation I’d be in if I didn’t have this meager sort of luck.) If I had met him just a couple of years ago, I would’ve been a writer for sure, damn the consequences.
· Read more… - Aug 26
- The Art of Not Wanting
Soul tripping from a tab of Tao and hit of Te.
· Read more… - Aug 30
- Words Get in the Way
I keep forgetting what I want to do.
· Read more… - Aug 31
- I Wish I Were in Glendale (A Case of Caffeine Withdrawal)
The word for the month: “unsustainable.” I won’t be home for at least another two months. How can I possibly survive without caffeine?
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