Jun 2007
- Jun 1
- fucking with my circadian clock
It’s past 4:30 a.m. and I really, really, really should go to sleep.
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- quizzy-poos
My cousin J™ [1][2] loves this crap:
· Read more… - Jun 3
- A generalized sense of madness
I can tell you, working nights is not particularly conducive to mental well-being. Especially when nearly everyone you meet is somewhat insane as it is, and a good number of them are just completely crazy.
· Read more… - Jun 5
- from phoenicia to austronesia?
(revised from ”The meaning of syllables”)
· Read more… - Jun 5
- binding energy
(revised from ”Cultural Origin of Dualism?”)
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- on gods and spirits
(revised from ”Re: response to victor & malaki)
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- alibata
Ang hindi marunong magmahal sa sariling wika ay higit pa ang amoy sa bulok at mabahong isda — Jose Rizal (Anyone who doesn’t know how to love their own language is worse than the smell of a rotten, stinky fish)
· Read more… - Jun 9
- more quizzes
Your Personality Is
· Read more… - Jun 11
- enneagram simplified
From J™:
· Read more… - Jun 11
- this was unexpected (following j™'s via-trails)
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- Jun 11
- oh blessed sleep
So now my sleep-wake cycle is completely fucked. It was probably a poor idea to have that Frappucino with an extra shot of espresso.
· Read more… - Jun 12
- the middle part
(inspired by a comment to a blog post by someone whom I’ve been blog-stalking on MySpace)
· Read more… - Jun 12
- endings (a conversation continued)
June. Before the solstice and the fading of the sunlight. The beginning of summer is always the ending of another year. Another epoch. As usual, I am always facing the brink of time alone, each time finding myself further and further from civilization. (A voice cries out in the wilderness.) The exile has never ended. I’ve lost any hope of finding a distant shore. Like The Flying Dutchman denied from mooring at any port, I am forced to sail on, sail on.
· Read more… - Jun 13
- radiohead "lucky"
(Listen to it on the Hype Machine: Radiohead “Lucky” (acoustic))
· Read more… - Jun 14
- the future is now
I once had a dream about blogging, being irritated with the emergency department, and the planet Pluto. Somehow these elements randomly came together tonight for no particular reason, and I got this eerie feeling that somehow I can dream about the future. This isn’t the first time this has occurred, and it’s not just some déjà vu weirdness. Unfortunately, my dreams about the future are never useful.
· Read more… - Jun 15
- bathala
I don’t know how this managed to elude me for so long, and I don’t really know what prompted me to look this up. Somehow I had stumbled upon the word kairos, which up to now I had merely thought of as the high-school retreat that my high school, along with many Catholic high schools, has seniors participate in. At my school, it wasn’t mandatory, so I never went. I hear that it can be quite life-changing and that it’s very touchy-feely. There insider motto is “Live the Fourth.” Since the Kairos retreat is three days long, I have been told that “the Fourth” means the fourth day, which basically means that one’s life should be lived as an extension of the Kairos experience.
· Read more… - Jun 15
- lord of the universe?
I also wonder where exactly my last name comes from. It’s a really unique name, and pretty much anyone who has it is almost certainly related to me somehow.
· Read more… - Jun 16
- attraction/repulsion
I really haven't gotten the model thing to work for me. I like how I attract unstable people. Yay!
· Read more… - Jun 20
- little thoughts
This week is starting to really get to me. I only have to work for two more nights before I get a weekend.
· Read more… - Jun 21
- more myspace bulletins/quizzes from j™
Which forgotten animated heroine are you?
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- Jun 21
- gift or curse
The New York Times published an article about how eldest children tend to be ever-so-slightly more “intelligent” than their younger sibs. (Found on Newsvine.)
· Read more… - Jun 21
- solstice (my voluminous blogroll)
I literally skim through 400+ RSS feeds a day. I kind of wonder where my limit is. The point where it starts to feel onerous, and that I’ll never ever get any real work done.
· Read more… - Jun 21
- mas preguntas
How will I die?
· Read more… - Jun 22
- full circle
It’s 5 a.m. and I’m actually at work, where I am allowed to sleep. Unfortunately, I’m all keyed-up and can’t seem to sit still. Hurry up and wait, indeed.
· Read more… - Jun 23
- by the pricking of my thumbs
So I thought about the story of Snow White, how her mom pricks her finger on a sewing needle, and when she sees a drop of blood upon the white cloth she is sewing, she thinks of naming a daughter Snow White. So she gives birth, and then dies.
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- Jun 23
- where does he get those wonderful toys?
Again, more quizzes from J™.
· Read more… - Jun 24
- the empire
Bush and Cheney’s disdain for the rule of law—to the point of disobeying their own laws—has been flitting around in my consciousness for the past couple of days. On one hand, it’s not surprising at all. Ever since the election of 2000, W and his cronies have been breaking laws and have tried to consolidate the supreme power of the executive branch. From W’s usurpation of the presidency, to the illegal war in Iraq, the abolition of habeas corpus, the institution of torture, and W’s unlawful signing statements, these bastards have far exceeded Nixon’s violations. But Devilstower on The Daily Kos puts it into chilling perspective.
· Read more… - Jun 25
- backward compatibility
I don’t know if it’s because I have just a touch of risk-seeking behavior, but the concept of backward compatibility was never a compelling reason for me to expect that people would deliberately sabotage innovation. And yet, witness the gutted shell that is Vista, which is lacking interesting features like WinFS and Monad/Powershell (although this is eventually going to be released), features that would actually make me want to explore this brave new OS. (And these are only the most infamous of the scrapped features, to boot.)
· Read more… - Jun 25
- baffling (how i learned to stop worrying and love the gui and high-level languages)
Now, don’t get me wrong. I’m not a developer. The extent of my hacking history lies in the good old 8-bit days when I was hand-coding machine language programs into BASIC DATA statements. I learned, of all things, Pascal (which happened to be the programming language tested on the AP Computer Science test) and tried to muck around with C and C++, but eventually gave up with that and ended up learning Perl instead.
· Read more… - Jun 25
- trolling the board
A few small gems that made me laugh out loud that I found while looking for potential admits on tonight’s emergency department board:
· Read more… - Jun 25
- addicted
Quizzes. Not from J™. Unfortunately I don’t remember the source.
· Read more… - Jun 26
- more disorder
- Jun 26
- at least i'm not that guy
Wow. This sounds bad.
· Read more… - Jun 29
- oh my adrenal glands
I feel utterly tired and spent. I have spent the last two weeks living an unnatural existence, forced to try to sleep during the day and stay awake at night. I can almost imagine my adrenal glands screaming, trying to pump out enough cortisol and epinephrine to keep me from crashing. After my last shift tonight, I wouldn’t be surprised if I end up sleeping until Monday.
· Read more… - Jun 29
- the etymology of "gorked" and its cognates
Gorked is a word we like to throw around the emergency department and the hospital wards from time to time. In our general usage of the term, it basically means someone who is non-responsive, generally comatose (as opposed to mere altered mental status/delirium.) In some ways, it has an iatrogenic connotation to it, as it is sometimes used to describe patients who are inadvertantly rendered unresponsive due to excessive dosing of medication (although the more common terminology for this condition is snowed) or unresponsive because of a bad clinical outcome, such as massive stroke, brain hemorrhage, post-code brain (so called because this is what tends to happen when they call a code blue [cardiac and/or respiratory arrest emergency] and it takes more than 8 minutes to get you back, meaning that there is bigtime hypoxic-ischemic brain injury—no oxygen or bloodflow to the brain), or post-bypass brain (which is usually a lot more subtle, and usually has psychiatric qualities to it, but occasionally, someone who gets a coronary artery bypass graft—abbreviated as CABG and affectionately pronounced like “cabbage”—gets gorked.)
· Read more… - Jun 29
- if i were a dame
Found on Gura’s Blog:
· Read more… - Jun 30
- better lucky than good
The Fool is an auspicious card, depicting potential.
· Read more… - Jun 30
- dissolution
July cometh. A new year starts.
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