tags: friendzone

2000

December

2000 Dec 5
Revelation

It figures that just when I'm about to write down an important revelation, something comes up. So let's see if I can catch what I was talking about.

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2002

March

2002 Mar 23
Acute Distress

Don’t give up? Please don’t patronize me.

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April

2002 Apr 1
I Don't Want to Feel This Way Forever

OK I give up! Someone untie me!

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2002 Apr 4
Done

Whatever.

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2002 Apr 7
Dead Weight

I keep holding myself down, for reasons I can’t even begin to fathom. Somehow I’ve got to get these chains off my ankle, shoot back up to the surface, and finally take a deep breath.

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May

2002 May 30
Mission Accomplished

Target destroyed.

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June

2002 Jun 11
Blowing Chunks

Even more fear and loathing in Las Vegas.

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2003

February

2003 Feb 17
Paranoid Android

I want to say more, but I don’t know who is reading this. Damn it.

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March

2003 Mar 7
¡Ay Caramba!

I guess one of my favorite hobbies is feeling sorry for myself. Gah.

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2003 Mar 16
I Will Never Understand

It is impossible to change someone if they don’t want to change. How tragic.

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2003 Mar 16
Assessment: Acute Confusional State - Resolved

You just told me he was the most horrible person you know. You’re getting back together with him. Makes perfect sense to me.

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April

2003 Apr 12
Signs and Symptoms

More brain barf. Yes I know I promised to stop thinking. Especially about women. Especially about what they’re thinking.

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May

2003 May 26
Signs of an Intractable Situation

It’s all so simple, and yet….

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July

2003 Jul 7
Stupidity (Letting Her Sink Her Claws Into Me)

A shot in the dark. A phone call. Not that the rug was necessarily pulled out from under, but either way, I’m lying on bare ground.

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2005

March

2005 Mar 3
red shifting galaxies

I came home today all-of-the-sudden completely fried. I'm working in yet another different place, and once again went through the rigors of the First Day™ The day went surprisingly, swimmingly well (as they say.) But as soon as I got home, I crashed on the couch and curled up into a fetal position.

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2006

March

2006 Mar 5
kai "say you’ll stay (jazzy jim remix)"

I thought I had mentioned this before, but I can’t find it in my blog archives. In any case, I swear it seems like sometimes my iPod can read what mood I’m in. On my 2 hour trip back from L.A., it kept pulling up all these down-tempo, super-chill, and melancholy, reflective songs, and while this cheesy song by a Filipino American group may not really fall into this category, it is attached to a somewhat melancholy memory.

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August

2006 Aug 1
a meditation on why things fall apart

After work today, I went to the Coffee Bean to get some caffeine because of my impending caffeine-withdrawal headache. I basically spent the time sipping on my ice-blended caffeine drink and scrawling depressing passages into my notebook. Man, I’m on fire these days.

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October

2006 Oct 21
time marches on

So I give up. This is all there is, and there ain’t no mo’. God only knows what sort of fucked up crisis would actually get me to save myself, but I’m too fucking tired.

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2007

April

2007 Apr 1
euphemisms and ridiculous tangents

None of my own inner demons have anything directly to do with Nic’s blog post about how nice guys finish last, but the opening quote reminded me of the dead-end lifestyle I’ve been leading for the last decade or so.

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2008

July

2008 Jul 13
the joy of repetition

I am still waiting for the veritable hammer to fall. I can only expect that it will happen exactly when I'm least expecting it.

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December

2008 Dec 5
friend zone

I should probably just show this to every woman I meet to save both of us time.

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2012

July

2012 Jul 9
years after it was much too, much too late

It's weird how random memories will sneak up on me. Usually while I'm driving, but I suppose that really shouldn't be that surprising since I live in Southern California, and odds are, I'm in my car.

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2014

January

2014 Jan 15
dying in the friend zone

How did people get over this? They obviously did. Every day someone fell in love with the wrong person and had to pack up all their fragile, misguided hopes and unwanted affection, and move on.

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