May 2003
- May 3
- The Unstuck Piece of Tape (Lysis of Adhesions)
The more things change…
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- The Spell Is Broken
The end of another chapter. Time continues to fly.
· Read more… - May 7
- I'm Not the One Who's Crazy!
Schizophrenia. Maybe I do need to be on medication.
· Read more… - May 10
- Mantra
Fear not of men because men must die.
· Read more… - May 13
- The Promise of New Beginnings
It isn't until now that I appreciate the deceptive nature of the month of May. I suppose that, ever since I was a child, May has always meant endings, but also, the promise of new beginnings. The final full month of school, with glimpses of summer ahead. But I've grown to learn that, more often than not, such promises [don't] come to fruition.
· Read more… - May 13
- False Promise
May has always been fraught with false promise
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dreams of love
fire, hope
endings
Conceived in the cradle of springs
Grown gravid then stillborn come cold winter
And STILL I wish. - May 16
- The Matrix Reloaded — Unreal City (SPOILERS!)
The Prophecy shall be fulfilled. Every city is a manifestation of Unreal City—Babylon, Rome, London, New York, Chicago, L.A., everywhere and nowhere.
· Read more… - May 17
- Curiouser and Curiouser
I am Alice in fucking Wonderland right now. It’s only a matter of time until the shit hits the fan and the Jabberwock comes chomping on my ass.
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- May 18
- Self-Fulfilling Prophecy
See the luck I’ve had would make a good man turn bad.
· Read more… - May 18
- Fidgety
I know what is going to happen, but I guarantee I’m still going to feel like crap.
· Read more… - May 19
- These Dreams
As real as it seems, it was only in my dreams. (Help me, help me! I’m trapped in the 1980’s!)
· Read more… - May 19
- I'll Send an S.O.S. to the World
I hope that someone gets my message in a bottle.
· Read more… - May 20
- Game Over
And yet: Insert Coin to Continue. Damn.
· Read more… - May 22
- Time Marches On
Taking my head out of my ass at least to catch a breath.
· Read more… - May 22
- My Life Is Whack
That’s right, folks. Tear your hair out along with me.
· Read more… - May 24
- premature death
I dreamt this a month or two ago, but it has popped into my mind again. In my dream, my widow (and, yes, it is a particular woman I am friends with whom I will leave nameless, although trust me it isn't who you think, whomever you are thinking of)—she is with my son in some park. (Childhood memories make me want to think that it is Griffith Park. Or maybe the La Brea Tar Pits.) It's kind of a haunting idea. Imagine, if I actually eventually fell in love and got married and had a kid, only to die at an early age. Well. My mom always teased me that because I have small ears, that I would have a short life. And I have already had a very cinematic dream of my death scene (which I might narrate in this space sometime if I haven't already.) Not that I believe in prophecies or anything. Trust me. My foresight has always missed the marked.
· Read more… - May 24
- Movie Night
In tribute to Virginia Madsen.
· Read more… - May 26
- If Seurat Had Written A Blog
A rather heavy-handed analogy. Impressions of an evening wobbling out of control.
· Read more… - May 26
- Yesterday
I can’t stay/And keep living this lie/I finally found the strength to say goodbye/I’m on my way/Nothing can change my mind/I’m leaving behind what we had/Yesterday
· Read more… - May 26
- Signs of an Intractable Situation
It’s all so simple, and yet….
· Read more… - May 31
- The Road Goes Ever On and On — Revisited
Ah, to return from exile. Does nothing ever last? At least longer than an effervescent moment?
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