Jul 2003
- Jul 1
- Via Trails
You can’t really call it stalking can you? It’s not like I’m breaking into their computers or anything….
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- The Sound of Inevitability
I am a machine(?)
· Read more… - Jul 3
- The Lonely Silence of Night
As I lay me down to sleep. A brief summary of the days gone by.
· Read more… - Jul 3
- Fatal Exception Error (Shut It Down! Shut It Down!)
At some point I may require some Haldol.
· Read more… - Jul 4
- Despite It All
What if surviving really is as good as it gets?
· Read more… - Jul 4
- The Deep End (Year 227 of the Republic)
And not even anything to dream about.
· Read more… - Jul 5
- Sail On, Sail On
My dog won’t let me go to sleep.
· Read more… - Jul 5
- To Live and Die in Chicago
A safe landing. It’s not as bad to be here as I thought.
· Read more… - Jul 7
- Scraping By
Things aren’t so bad once you get used to them.
· Read more… - Jul 7
- Stupidity (Letting Her Sink Her Claws Into Me)
A shot in the dark. A phone call. Not that the rug was necessarily pulled out from under, but either way, I’m lying on bare ground.
· Read more… - Jul 8
- Rivalling Vogon Poetry
Keep the violins going, damn it.
· Read more… - Jul 9
- The Art of Self-Medication
OK, OK, I promise I’ll stop feeling sorry for myself. Or at least I’ll try and cut down.
· Read more… - Jul 11
- Jesus, What A Mind Job
Why do I feel like I am once again, in the calm before the storm? I suppose I could be paranoid.
· Read more… - Jul 13
- Full Moon Tonight
Contemplation in the darkness. I can’t get to sleep.
· Read more… - Jul 14
- The Art of Self-Medication - Reprise
Another confession: I have serious problems. But some of you already knew that. Why I don’t tell people who are close to me, and yet I’m OK with telling the entire Internet, who knows?
· Read more… - Jul 14
- Walt Disney Can Kiss My Ass
I can’t seem to write myself out of a paper bag.
· Read more… - Jul 15
- Flight of Ideas (Episode II): I Am Running Out of Titles
I really, really need to start writing things down. I had some pretty deep and interesting thoughts this afternoon, but now they are all gone. Oh, but there is a little teaser about learned helplessness.
· Read more… - Jul 16
- Inanity (Circumferential Thoughts)
Narrating today. Striving for enlightenment.
· Read more… - Jul 17
- You Gotta Know When to Hold 'Em, Know When to Fold 'Em
Unfortunately, you have to play them how they were dealt.
· Read more… - Jul 20
- Getting A Grip
One handhold at a time. This is definitely nowhere near perfect, but it’s better than wanting to kill yourself all the time. Oh. And I gave in to my inner demons and bought a digital camera.
· Read more… - Jul 21
- Promiscuous Wandering
well. until i figure out how to post things remotely at my hand-crafted blog, this will have to do. this is where i shall post random snippets from my promiscuous wanderings amongst strange computer terminals in this brave new world.
· Read more… - Jul 21
- Nothing Teaches Like the Hand in the Fire
i have walked into my school and discovered that today is the first day of orientation for the m1s. for some inarticulable reason, i cringe. oh well. live and learn. nothing teaches like the hand in the fire.
- Jul 21
- The Harsh Truth
The root of all my misery.
· Read more… - Jul 22
- Coasting to a Stop
Instead of slamming the brakes into the ground. Nothing like the power of inertia.
· Read more… - Jul 22
- I am an Angry Drunk
Help me! I broke apart my insides….
· Read more… - Jul 24
- Damn It All to Hell
And even though I’ve raised the white flag and cried uncle, I am still getting beaten down.
· Read more… - Jul 25
- At the Bottom of the 1st Inning, the Score Is…
I’ll be OK. Really. Come hell or high water.
· Read more… - Jul 25
- Lots of Major Arcana in Today's Reading
lots of major arcana in today's reading:
· Read more… - Jul 29
- Condolences
A moment.
· Read more… - Jul 30
- Sit Down and Be Still
Really, the problem is that there is too much on my mind right now. (I've mentioned before how thinking too much is going to get me into serious trouble and perhaps might even kill me.) I mean, yeah, sure there is the fact that I have to figure out the trajectory of my life in 3 months, give or take. And then there are all sorts of other situations that, admittedly, I probably shouldn't be thinking about, but because I don't want to deal with the issue at hand, I let them fill my mind.
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