themes: myth of Sisyphus
2000
July
- 2000 Jul 10
- I Am Too Happy to Know What Time It Is
See the problem here is that Sisyphus is cheating. It diminishes the true (futile) achievement. Fuck it all.
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- Resignation
I don't know why I didn't feel so bad today. Maybe I've resigned myself to my fate. Maybe e-mailing everybody and their mom let me vent a little. I mean, sure, I balked a little when I saw [redacted]'s e-mail sitting in my inbox. [I was] afraid. But [reading it] I didn't feel much, just a [light touch] of regret. I've no intention of returning to L.A. any time soon. As I've said, I've begun to equate it with happiness and [also] with being trapped.
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2001
January
- 2001 Jan 15
- Calm
Am I nothing but a clockwork orange? Louis-Ferdinand Céline. Calvin and Hobbes and the Myth of Sisyphus.
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February
- 2001 Feb 10
- High
I want to yell obscenities, not because I'm pissed off or anything, I just think that the world is deserving of obscenities.
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2003
October
- 2003 Oct 23
- everything must change
Nothing ever stays the same.
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2006
June
- 2006 Jun 12
- utang na loob
I always forget whether it’s na or ng. I have this propensity for tacking on unnecessary -ng enclitics and eliding necessary ones. My cousins in the Philippines always find my mangled Tagalog highly entertaining.
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July
- 2006 Jul 27
- falling from grace
spun like fine threads
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of fraying axons clasping like hands upon
curled, crackly dendrites
like a mad forest of electrical wiring
exploding in a kind of chemical glee
September
- 2006 Sep 1
- simple pleasures revisited
I was lying in bed, warm and comfortable, except somehow I had lost my pillow, and I thought I should just go to sleep and find it when I wasn’t so tired, but then I quickly found it to the side of my bed.
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- hopeless (another september come and gone)
I usually know better than to hinge my hopes on someone else being around, and yet I still hoped that I’d get to hang out with [redacted] this weekend. Wishful thinking as usual.
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October
- 2006 Oct 13
- sheer madness
So I like to blame all this on damned cats. Now I’ve got nothing against cats, per se. I kind of like how they’re not literal ass-kissers like dogs are (and I am a dog person.) But the problem is that I’m deathly allergic to them, and on Thursday night I got a double dose.
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2007
February
- 2007 Feb 10
- a summary of the year thus far
A lot of random little things have happened in the past month and a half that have really sent my brain reeling. In some ways, it feels like Christmas was just a little while ago, when I was wallowing in an irrational, meaningless episode of depression, and ever since it’s been an emotional rollercoaster.
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July
- 2007 Jul 25
- Burdens
The though was "betrayal"
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or maybe it was "onus"
The unpayable debt, the blood price
(And if I paid it, would I be free?)
My memories are of Atlas lifting the world on
his shoulders
Sisyphus rolling up the Stone.
The karyatid crushed beneath the load…
August
- 2007 Aug 7
- purpose
Hoping that when I find myself face-to-face with an ICBM with a neutron bomb payload, I won't have to say the same thing
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October
- 2007 Oct 2
- movement while staying still
I have yet to determine when the ideal time to have my last cup of coffee is. I feel like if I don’t have it before 6 p.m., I’m totally going to fall asleep, but if I have it at 7 p.m., then I’m going to be awake all night.
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2008
July
- 2008 Jul 21
- don't follow me/i'm lost at sea: a status update
Brand New "Millstone": a punk rock retelling of "The Rime of the Ancient Mariner"
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September
- 2008 Sep 2
- now I definitely can't sleep
I think I was supposed to learn something from this. I wish I knew what it was, though.
2015
October
- 2015 Oct 29
- Molecular Version of the Myth of Sisyphus
Christopher S. posted this animated GIF on Facebook and I knew I'd seen it somewhere before….
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December
- 2015 Dec 30
- Space Taoism
Given the fact that the Dark Side of the Force (as the Sith, the Empire, or the First Order) always build a planet-destroying weapon that has a single point of failure and the Light Side of the Force (as the Jedi Council, the Rebel Alliance, or the Resistance) always manages to destroy it, I've started to see "Star Wars" as a version of the myth of Sisyphus.
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