tags: mortality

2003

July

2003 Jul 29
Condolences

A moment.

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August

2003 Aug 22
splattered

Blood, sterile technique, and mortality.

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October

2003 Oct 12
the fragility of life

As I lie here in a hotel room bed, watching my brother, my sister, and my sister's boyfriend sleep as the sun slowly creeps over the horizon, I am content.

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2006

April

2006 Apr 2
it’s a trap!

Here I am pondering the chances of actually breaking out of the Black Iron Prison when I am reminded of a quote by Douglas Adams, author of the cult classic The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy (who by the way was an atheist and is a big influence on my philosophies regarding the universe):

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June

2006 Jun 11
meditation on inadequacy

I find it interesting that my mind is unable to remodel the emotional trajectory of my life through at least the last 10-15 years. I remember being someone who was a perfectionist, inordinably hard on myself, always thinking that I was a failure, that I wasn’t good enough, that I wasn’t smart enough, that I’d never succeed. I recognize that a lot of this was in response to a mother who was excruciatingly demanding, who couldn’t stand things being done in any other way than her own, and who would just do things for me instead letting me do things my own way.

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2007

February

2007 Feb 10
a summary of the year thus far

A lot of random little things have happened in the past month and a half that have really sent my brain reeling. In some ways, it feels like Christmas was just a little while ago, when I was wallowing in an irrational, meaningless episode of depression, and ever since it’s been an emotional rollercoaster.

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June

2007 Jun 23
by the pricking of my thumbs

So I thought about the story of Snow White, how her mom pricks her finger on a sewing needle, and when she sees a drop of blood upon the white cloth she is sewing, she thinks of naming a daughter Snow White. So she gives birth, and then dies.

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2008

June

2008 Jun 10
yet the arrow of time

I randomly went home on Sunday. I woke up around 6 a.m. outside my own volition, without any alarms, and decided it would be a good idea to hop on a train and head up to L.A. I pretty much just ate something like six meals and watched cable TV with my dad. We watched a bunch of westerns.

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2008 Jun 22
unroofing

It's terrible, really. Times like these, when it's sunny and calm and blissful and quiet, is when I worry the most.

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2015

July

2015 Jul 28
Artificial Sweeteners

The Evidence Supports Artificial Sweeteners Over Sugar • Aaron E. Carroll • The New York Times

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October

2015 Oct 29
Heart Attacks are Still a More Likely Cause of Death than Cancer

Realistically, if you eat a ton of bacon, sausage, or Spam or eat an entire porterhouse steak every night, you're probably not going to die of cancer. Coronary artery disease is probably going to get to you first. (crossposted on Facebook)

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