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2001
July
- 2001 Jul 30
- The City that Doesn't Sleep and Other Ramblings
New York and a few random epiphanies.
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- Technical Difficulties
Why does this exist?
· Read more… - 2001 Jul 31
- New York City — Episode VI
My sixth trip to New York City
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August
- 2001 Aug 2
- Chicagoland Redux
Escapades in the middle of nowhere.
· Read more… - 2001 Aug 3
- Anno 3 in Exilio (An Acute Bout of Homesickness)
Where in the hell did this come from. Some random eruptions from the subconscious.
· Read more… - 2001 Aug 3
- What, Me Worry?
I can pull wild explanations and rationalizations out of my ass all day. I think they’re for the most part true as far as I can see, but I can understand how it all looks like bullshit in the end.
· Read more… - 2001 Aug 4
- Thoughts About Ben Hur
Random movie pick. It was either this or Spartacus.
· Read more… - 2001 Aug 4
- Beautiful Day
A day in Chicago.
· Read more… - 2001 Aug 8
- Schroedinger's Limbic System
Perspective is hard to achieve if you’re hallucinating.
· Read more… - 2001 Aug 8
- Lunacy
OK, so my mind isn’t quite back together yet, but I’m getting there. Really.
· Read more… - 2001 Aug 10
- I Bleed Myself Dry
Life is a highway. I want to drive it all night long.
· Read more… - 2001 Aug 15
- Metaphysics on a Gloomy Day
The fruits of meditation. Don’t say I didn’t warn you.
· Read more… - 2001 Aug 16
- Where is Here?
Nothing is making much sense right now, and yet I’m still hoping for a specific outcome, no matter how far removed from reality it might be. This is where “What-If” leads you if you’re not careful, I suppose.
· Read more… - 2001 Aug 17
- Gods and Heroes
Pondering. Relationships. Godhood. Loki. Chaos.
· Read more… - 2001 Aug 17
- The Name of Things
Almost ought to count. Because what is “almost” here might just be “reality” somewhere-somewhen else.
· Read more… - 2001 Aug 18
- Dreaming
Are you supposed to believe in dreams? Not wishes or hopes or aspirations or anything like that—these are things from the waking world. But actual dreams: the kaleidoscopic menagerie of images running around your subconscious, where disbelief is not only suspended, but quite possibly expelled and turned over to the authorities. Where everything is true, even when it isn’t or can’t possibly be. *sigh*
· Read more… - 2001 Aug 18
- Eternal and Stateless (A Tale of Pepcid AC)
Which way to go? Some other random stuff.
· Read more… - 2001 Aug 19
- Amnesiac
I’m a reasonable man, get off my case, get off my case, get off my case. Hahahahahaha!!!
· Read more… - 2001 Aug 19
- Life and Limb for a Sausage McMuffin
I got better. The music helps.
· Read more… - 2001 Aug 20
- 3rd Person Pseudo-omniscient
More random fragments. Somedays I scare even myself.
· Read more… - 2001 Aug 22
- Semi-Charmed Kind of Life
Random Chance strikes again. (In the end, I suppose it all evens out, and nothing changes. It sort of frightens me thinking about what sort of horrific situation I’d be in if I didn’t have this meager sort of luck.) If I had met him just a couple of years ago, I would’ve been a writer for sure, damn the consequences.
· Read more… - 2001 Aug 26
- The Art of Not Wanting
Soul tripping from a tab of Tao and hit of Te.
· Read more… - 2001 Aug 30
- Words Get in the Way
I keep forgetting what I want to do.
· Read more… - 2001 Aug 31
- I Wish I Were in Glendale (A Case of Caffeine Withdrawal)
The word for the month: “unsustainable.” I won’t be home for at least another two months. How can I possibly survive without caffeine?
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September
- 2001 Sep 1
- Septembers and LotR
Get up, get up—it’s the first of the month…. Memories. From the corner of my mind…. It’s time to read the trilogy again.
· Read more… - 2001 Sep 2
- Wizard's School
Ursula K Le Guin. The Wizard of Earthsea. We are living in a postmodern world where everything has already been created, so everything is de facto derivative….
· Read more… - 2001 Sep 2
- Freeciv
Study break: half an hour of Freeciv. Half an hour. Sure
· Read more… - 2001 Sep 4
- Jedi Mind Tricks
Practicing brinksmanship with myself. (Thoughts of Doomsday Devices and running amok floating through my head.) Freedom is just another word for “nothing to lose.”
· Read more… - 2001 Sep 5
- On the Edge of Ruin (How The Simpsons Made Me Cry)
I mutter about philosophy and spirituality while the chasm yawns beneath me.
· Read more… - 2001 Sep 8
- Unsustainable
An eruption of brain farts. Nothing really interesting today.
· Read more… - 2001 Sep 10
- Shape of My Heart
Dropping Bombs. Hit men haven’t gotten time for love anyway.
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- September 11, 2001
There are no words I can write. I try reaching down to find something that might give clear meaning, but all I can think of are the thousands of voices silenced forever.
- 2001 Sep 12
- Choose Life
Do the right thing.
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- 25
My mind is everywhere. I am trying to find hope. It’s there somewhere, I just have to keep believing.
· Read more… - 2001 Sep 15
- Peace on Earth
Venting. Thank God for the sane people in this world.
· Read more… - 2001 Sep 15
- The Post-WTC World
What will be written in the history books, I wonder?
· Read more… - 2001 Sep 17
- Still Searching for Words
In reality, nothing ever fits right, and the words all come out wrong, but you’ve got to try anyway.
· Read more… - 2001 Sep 19
- The Oath
Why I feel the way I feel, right or wrong.
· Read more… - 2001 Sep 22
- The Last Day of Summer
The last day of summer always feels so cold.
· Read more… - 2001 Sep 27
- Debacle
Self-pity at 4 a.m. Yes, I could’ve gone home, and none of this would’ve ever happened.
· Read more… - 2001 Sep 30
- Last Days
More sophistry and philosophy. I guess I really am depressed. ECT, here I come.
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October
- 2001 Oct 1
- First of the Month
The surest thing about luck is that it will change.
· Read more… - 2001 Oct 5
- Some of My Best Friends are Women…
Let’s just say that it’s been a long week and circumstance has been rapidly draining me of any semblance of optimism. I know that things really don’t change just because you want them to, but it’s not the easiest thing to accept that this is the way things are supposed to be.
· Read more… - 2001 Oct 6
- Like the Weather
Sunlight is my bestest friend.
· Read more… - 2001 Oct 7
- Nowhere to Run
More Charles Bukowski. I’m running out of words.
· Read more… - 2001 Oct 10
- Bits and Pieces
Totally random shit.
· Read more… - 2001 Oct 14
- Contractions
Concentric circles. The space gets smaller and smaller, but it’s not bad if you can get used to it.
· Read more… - 2001 Oct 14
- Follow that Link
It’s war, and I’m not entirely sure “normalcy” is what we should be seeking. For those who really believe in Freedom, it’s time to get moving.
· Read more… - 2001 Oct 16
- And Justice for All?
What date will mark the beginning of the end, I wonder? Do I dare hope that Freedom will once more prevail, and that the Great Experiment will live on?
· Read more… - 2001 Oct 17
- Last Night Radiohead Saved My Life (One Thing Leads to Another)
Sleep deprivation and a classic case of flight of ideas. Thank God for Thom Yorke and his merry men.
· Read more… - 2001 Oct 19
- High Intensity White Noise (Flight of Ideas)
No I’m not crazy. Yet. God give me strength.
· Read more… - 2001 Oct 22
- I Read the News Today, Oh Boy
TV really does rot your brain. Shouldn’t capitalism be subservient to democracy and not the other way around?
· Read more… - 2001 Oct 23
- One to Go
To Infinity and Beyond! Get paid for lying in bed for thirty days straight.
· Read more… - 2001 Oct 24
- Jack the Ripper
Johnny Depp, laudanum and absinthe, pathology and clinical neuroscience, Freemasonry. It’s got it all.
· Read more… - 2001 Oct 26
- I Don't Want No One Minute Blog
I’m done. It’s snowing. I’m outta here.
· Read more… - 2001 Oct 31
- Cutting at Oblique Angles (Doing Things the Hard Way)
I like to organize things, even memories, landfill style, one stratum at a time.
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November
- 2001 Nov 1
- All Saints
Breasts. Testicles. Electroconvulsive therapy.
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- Roads
Journey to the Past.
· Read more… - 2001 Nov 8
- Drama and Desperation
Can we say bipolar disorder? So high you can’t get over it. So low you can’t get under it. But I already knew what I needed to know. For some reason I just forgot. Added bonus: a little microbiology lesson.
· Read more… - 2001 Nov 10
- Whelm
Neither under or over.
· Read more… - 2001 Nov 15
- Brown Buffalo
¡Viva la Revolucion! Mabuhay ang Himagsikan! More and more, I’m believing that we’re fighting a common struggle that transcends race, religion, social class, or whatever axis you want to devise. Are you a cockroach or an exterminator? The conquered or the conqueror? In other words, are you for or against humanity?
· Read more… - 2001 Nov 19
- Pandora's Box
A soap opera is brewing. (At least in my head.) Maybe I should just stick to my “Hear no evil, see no evil” policy.
· Read more… - 2001 Nov 21
- Fragged and Shagged
Bits and pieces of me keep passing out.
· Read more… - 2001 Nov 24
- Just Look At The Sky
With all this talk of drama and all, I have suddenly realized what I miss the most.
· Read more… - 2001 Nov 29
- Is It Real?
Vague as usual. Where is my mind.
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December
- 2001 Dec 1
- The Devil's Playground
Back to the art of not wanting. Oh, but how my heart aches.
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- My Random Self
More insane garbage spewing out of my mind. Anything to pass the time more quickly. I can’t wait to go home.
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- But Not Yet
Serious weirdness all around.
· Read more… - 2001 Dec 5
- The Edge of Decision
Drive.
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- insomnia
Deep, depressing thoughts at 4:30 a.m.
· Read more… - 2001 Dec 11
- Alanganin
Am I a failure? You can’t fail if you don’t try. (As Homer Simpson once said, “Trying is the first step to failure.”)
· Read more… - 2001 Dec 31
- It's the End of the World as We Know It
Time marches on.
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2002
January
- 2002 Jan 5
- New Year, Shnew Year
Stress can be a real killer. I hate it! I hate it! I hate it!
· Read more… - 2002 Jan 6
- Slide
For every punch in the gut you take, sometimes they give you a lollipop. Doesn’t do much for the pain, but hey, you take what you get, right?
· Read more… - 2002 Jan 9
- An Excerpt from Dhalgren
Then sometimes you just have to appropriate a passage from someone else’s masterpiece because it all fits so well.
· Read more… - 2002 Jan 10
- It Wasn't That the World Changed…
More thoughts about Dhalgren and the nature of synchronicity.
· Read more… - 2002 Jan 13
- Break It Down Again
“Laziness” doesn’t seem quite descriptive enough. Neither does “atypical depression.” What the hell is this monkey sitting on my shoulder?
· Read more… - 2002 Jan 16
- Addiction (For Love of a Stump)
Acrotomophiliacs. Are endorphins even more addicting than heroin?
· Read more… - 2002 Jan 16
- Snowfall
Everything is a map to me. Snow makes me feel like I’ve been transported to another world.
· Read more… - 2002 Jan 19
- Existential Crisis • Episode 6
A meditation. Thinking of things that should not be thought of at this particular hour.
· Read more… - 2002 Jan 23
- What Day Is It?
Randomness percolating in my brain.
· Read more… - 2002 Jan 24
- You Call This A Blog?
“Procrastination is like masturbation. It’s fun until you realize you’re only screwing yourself.”
· Read more… - 2002 Jan 25
- Commando
Caveat: Zippers really chafe.
· Read more… - 2002 Jan 27
- Med School Ruined My Life
My sense of normalcy has been completely destroyed.
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February
- 2002 Feb 5
- Shoulda, Coulda
Existential crisis #7
· Read more… - 2002 Feb 6
- Substance D
Dopamine and the nucleus accumbens.
· Read more… - 2002 Feb 7
- Brain Worms (Existential Crisis #8)
This is just pitiful and pathetic.
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