tags: better living through chemistry

This may very well be a mistake, but I really don't know what else I can do… even if I go clear out of [my] mind. Look at this, I'm not even completely coherent.

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2001

January

2001 Jan 4

A Space Odyssey

My mind is obviously on another planet right now. The wonderful world of tyramine and other sympathomimetics. Michelle and Rodel broke up!

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2001 Jan 24

Panem et Circenses

Watching TV makes me think of the fall of the Roman Empire, the bread, the circuses, the orgies, the vomitoriums. I guess it's like riding a waterfall [into a cesspool]. TV is an honest-to-God sewer.

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2001 Jan 26

Technochaos

“What is real?” asked Morpheus. A quick endocrinology snippet. (Learn something really nerdy and impress your friends.)

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February

2001 Feb 10

High

I want to yell obscenities, not because I'm pissed off or anything, I just think that the world is deserving of obscenities.

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March

2001 Mar 2

The Bard Was a Stoner

Puts A Midsummer Night’s Dream in a different light, doesn’t it?

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April

2001 Apr 27

Guessing about the Geography

I thought I had given up on this, what with the rationale for this monolithic screed having evaporated two months ago and the fact that I have brought my madness online, but I guess unless I finally do get a laptop, I'm going to have to put my thoughts somewhere when I'm on a trip. And I did promise to use up all the paper in this notebook anyway.

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October

2001 Oct 24

Jack the Ripper

Johnny Depp, laudanum and absinthe, pathology and clinical neuroscience, Freemasonry. It’s got it all.

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2002

February

2002 Feb 6

Substance D

Dopamine and the nucleus accumbens.

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March

2002 Mar 12

Drive

“Whatever tomorrow brings, I’ll be there, with open arms and open eyes….”

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October

2002 Oct 31

Seventeen Dollars Worth of Chemicals

What fueled the emergence of self?

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2003

July

2003 Jul 9

The Art of Self-Medication

OK, OK, I promise I’ll stop feeling sorry for myself. Or at least I’ll try and cut down.

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2003 Jul 14

The Art of Self-Medication - Reprise

Another confession: I have serious problems. But some of you already knew that. Why I don’t tell people who are close to me, and yet I’m OK with telling the entire Internet, who knows?

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2004

May

2004 May 30

hope (or the lack thereof)

"Hope!?" X spluttered, anger and confusion mingled. "Don't tell me about hope!"

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2007

April

2007 Apr 7

erratum or mere sophistry

Randomly, I saw this diagram of a serotenergic neuron. Rageboy wonders about the similarities between LSD and SSRIs.

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June

2007 Jun 22

full circle

It’s 5 a.m. and I’m actually at work, where I am allowed to sleep. Unfortunately, I’m all keyed-up and can’t seem to sit still. Hurry up and wait, indeed.

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September

2007 Sep 25

back to our regularly scheduled program

While I’m technically not on a ward month now, I’m spending about 11 hours a day in the hospital. Which is not as bad as it sounds, I guess. I dig working on the wards a lot better than working in the ED, frankly.

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2008

June

2008 Jun 21

effexor withdrawal

So I gave up on my psychiatrist because she's been pretty adamant about me making timely follow-up appointments. Unfortunately, part of my problem is that my executive function is seriously fucked. I'm just not very good at making plans. Seriously. It must be at least a minor miracle that I've made it this far without ending up dead.

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2012

April

2012 Apr 6

a common etiology of anxiety and panic

Sometimes I feel like telling people "the reason why you can't sleep and can't eat and feel like your heart is going to explode is because you've totally bought in to the American Dream bullshit, and it's slowly but surely killing you."

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November

2012 Nov 23

errant nerdery

While rummaging through my cabinets looking for some Tylenol, I started thinking about the drug delivery mechanism they use in the movie "Looper": eye drops.

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