tags: Wound That Will Not Heal
2000
December
- 2000 Dec 5
- Revelation
It figures that just when I'm about to write down an important revelation, something comes up. So let's see if I can catch what I was talking about.
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2001
January
- 2001 Jan 17
- Trembling
Holy mother of God! Why am I trembling? Something like joy courses through my veins, but the tears are waiting to fall. Will it be like this for the rest of my waking hours, to stand still, lost in a fog of indecision, while happiness is something that happens to other people?
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June
- 2001 Jun 18
- Physician, Heal Thy Self
The wound inside my heart.
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2002
November
- 2002 Nov 16
- Wound Check - Post Op Day 1
Recurrent acute mental emesis (another brain barf)
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December
- 2002 Dec 8
- Vector Tracings
I remember white outlines on a black background, kind of like a blueprint being drawn before my eyes. I don't know. Like a concept diagram. There was a road, or a railway. I know: as if reality were being generated as I cast my eyes upon it. More concretely, like a primitive 3D shooter (like Doom, or Counterstrike) whose graphics engine relied only on vector tracings, and which could not keep up with realtime. I suppose, if I really knew what I was doing, I would try to approximate it with a Flash animation, but such as it is.
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2003
January
- 2003 Jan 13
- Serenity Now!
Oh yes. I am a bitter, resentful bastard.
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2007
July
- 2007 Jul 7
- all we need is time
in the fog of indecision
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the clarity of the dawn
in the anxious disappointment of missed chances
the cold, hard certainty of inescapable destiny
in the silence of defeat
the distant roar of victory
September
- 2007 Sep 9
- blast crater
I guess there is no recovering from this. Even 10 years out.
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2008
May
- 2008 May 2
- cause is not reason
It is easy to fall into the trap of believing that causation means intentionality. Lots of things happen where you can trace the chain of events, see exactly how one thing leads to another, and all of these things could be devoid of intention. While each decision may be made by a rational agent, the sum is not greater than its parts.
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