tags: fato profugus

While I'm no naive optimist regarding the democratic process in the United States, I think there's something to be said about the relative calm of the populace despite how hotly contested the election is. Of course, whether this is due to the fact that Americans are among the most apathetic citizens in the world, or whether there is a sense of civic virtue and faith in the system, I can't really say.

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2000 Nov 9

aswang

Why I chose this name

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2000 Nov 9

Radiohead lyrics

Ice age come and ice age go.

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2000 Nov 12

Los Californios

Resisting the gringo

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2000 Nov 15

Fight Club Quotes; Election Commentary; Poetry; Other Randomness

The title says it all

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2000 Nov 24

More Poems; The Seven Dwarves; Sleep

There really was a “Sleepy.”

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December

2000 Dec 2

Finals Impending

I am sick of anatomy and histology

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2000 Dec 5

Colder than Hell

I really miss the sun.

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2000 Dec 6

Cigarettes and Snowflakes

Would you trust a doctor who doesn’t care about his health?

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2000 Dec 13

Democracy is Dead

It’s time to leave the country.

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2000 Dec 21

Sunny California

A pleasant respite. I’ve forgotten about unicorns. Bill Gates can suck my…

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2000 Dec 22

The Legacy of the Matrix

Re: “Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon” . I can’t believe Ang Lee directed “Sense and Sensibility”

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2000 Dec 25

Holly Jolly

Christmas is overrated. Jesus would be rolling in his grave if he knew I was in Vegas on his birthday. If he hadn’t been resurrected. And if he wasn’t omniscient.

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2001

January

2001 Jan 4

A Space Odyssey

My mind is obviously on another planet right now. The wonderful world of tyramine and other sympathomimetics. Michelle and Rodel broke up!

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2001 Jan 5

Music makes the people come together

I can’t live without aural stimulation. Why do I like “Gladiator” so much?

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2001 Jan 15

Calm

Am I nothing but a clockwork orange? Louis-Ferdinand Céline. Calvin and Hobbes and the Myth of Sisyphus.

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2001 Jan 17

Before I Lay Me Down to Sleep

More Calvin and Hobbes. Crackers and script-kiddies. More music. Princesses and unicorns.

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2001 Jan 19

Retrospect

This entry is just completely random. Oh, and they aren’t kidding about weddings and funerals.

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2001 Jan 20

Snowfields and Inspiration

How taking a drive gives me these completely random ideas

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2001 Jan 22

Histology and Matt Groening

Why don’t people care about scientific accuracy? I give Matt Groening props.

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2001 Jan 26

Technochaos

“What is real?” asked Morpheus. A quick endocrinology snippet. (Learn something really nerdy and impress your friends.)

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February

2001 Feb 8

End of Week One

False spring, tech woes, wisdom teeth, “Snatch”, the RIAA, and Ebola.

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2001 Feb 14

The Ides of February

Valentine’s Day blows. French movies are awesome. Drug movies are quickly becoming my favorite. Coldplay isn’t too bad. How could I resist an album whose first track is entitled “Don’t Panic”?

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2001 Feb 15

Sunlight and the Ocean

Santa Monica, Venice, high school memories, and my daily requirement of sunlight.

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2001 Feb 23

Without Rhyme or Reason

Am I a moron or what? My life is like a diluted, bawlderized version of Louis-Ferdinand Céline’s. (My other role model is, megalomaniacally, José Rizal. Frighteningly, I would say Céline’s life is the cheerier of the two.) I would probably never make it as a writer, though. I can always seem to find a Cure song that precisely expresses my misery.

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2001 Feb 24

The Terran Confederacy

Starship Troopers and Starcraft. Should I join the Navy? I got a recruitment packet from the Marines once, but I’ve watched “Full Metal Jacket.” I’d probably end up just like Private Pyle.

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2001 Feb 25

Please, Please Let Me Get What I Want

Good times for a change. See the life I’ve had would make a good man bad. The Art Institute. Mawage. How water-lilies can drive you insane. Voluptuousness and the Crusades.

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2001 Feb 27

Crushed

I redecorated. Whatcha think? Mardi Gras. Unmotivated. Fate wins.

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March

2001 Mar 1

Waiting for Spring

Fight the Power. Trust-bust the RIAA. You go, Courtney Love.

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2001 Mar 2

The Bard Was a Stoner

Puts A Midsummer Night’s Dream in a different light, doesn’t it?

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2001 Mar 5

rm -rf *

Can you get high on capsaicin? Texas Hold’em and Lady Luck. Why, oh, why don’t I keep better backups? Existentialism. I am so terribly lonely at this point, and I don’t think there will be an end to this misery. Ah well.

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2001 Mar 8

Namespaces

I spent much of the week basically retagging journal entries, rewriting stylesheets, and figuring out makefiles. You won't notice much of a difference and sometimes I wonder why I bothered, but hopefully it'll make things easier in the future.

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2001 Mar 11

Revolution and Martyrdom

A poem by Benigno Aquino. Lent and martyrdom. Dogeaters. Sometimes I just want to weep for the world.

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2001 Mar 22

Eleven Days

Who needs illegal drugs? Thinking with my sacral nerves again. (God, this med school thing is just encouraging my already warped personality) The maganda magazine archive. Journey to the End of the Night (Would it be translated as Paglalakbay Magdamag? I am just obsessed with that word now….)

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2001 Mar 23

Reading Books, Nearsightedness, and Nerdiness

Frighteningly, there actually is a biological process that explains the correlation between bookishness and wearing glasses. (The rest of the chain of events that cements one's social standing as a nerd is a conjectural adventure into psychology which I would rather not take…)

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2001 Mar 24

Flushed Down the Toilet

Unclogging the toilet. The edge of civilization. God I’m pathetic.

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2001 Mar 26

Procrastination

Redesigned again, if you noticed. I'm willling to do anything as long as it's not what I'm supposed to be doing. I'm waiting for my brother and my sister to come and visit me… due to my bizarre reasoning (M:G's song "No Sense of Reason" is now playing through my head…), they are arriving before I take my exam. Because of my full-grown phobia of airplanes, I keep imagining horrible things, but what can I do, life is like that, you really just have to keep your fingers crossed.

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2001 Mar 27

Remembering and Losing

The hazards of being unable to forget. Luck and losing.

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April

2001 Apr 1

Happy New Year

April is the cruelest month. Spring is teasing me. I hate how desolate the Midwest is, although I wouldn’t mind actually living in Chicago. I finally found a Playstation 2. I had a lot of clever things to say, but I can’t get them to come out.

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2001 Apr 1

Fear and Loathing in North Chicago

Daylight Saving Time is some sort of weird mind-control thing—I feel slightly drugged—does melatonin really have psychotropic effects? What do I watch next to continue on with my Benicio del Toro marathon? Capitalism has reached the metastatic phase and the end point is assured. The real issue is how do we deal with the meltdown? (Hint: I’m not talking about the Dow Jones here.)

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2001 Apr 2

A Quote from JLB

A quote about hell and insanity.

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2001 Apr 3

Disarray

When will I ever learn to leave well enough alone. How the Mafia, the Simpsons, and my brother and my sister taught me the importance of family. Even when I want to strangle them. (I am not a violent guy. Really.)

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2001 Apr 4

Pfft… Just Like That

Money, love, family, and the Simpsons.

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2001 Apr 5

Netritus

I clearly have not gotten enough sleep. I am again coining nonsense words like netritus (Internet detritus).

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2001 Apr 6

Zzap! (The Beauty of Resignation)

Lightning. I give up. For now.

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2001 Apr 8

Passion

Very bad translations, corporate doom, and the mutual exclusiveness of an Empire and a future

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2001 Apr 9

You Gotta Know When to Fold 'Em

Show me your poker face! You call that a poker face! Witchhazel, styptic, and death by crucifixion in the ICD-9 manual. Normalcy is basically impossible at this juncture.

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2001 Apr 10

If I Don't Believe in It, It Will Go Away

Money, money, money, money… money!! Fuck capitalism. Sony, why are you trying to kill me? I am definitely a hack writer who couldn’t pull of a decent plot line if my life depended on it.

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2001 Apr 12

Code

I’m glad I’m friends with whom I’m friends with. As cheesy as it sounds, it’ll all work out in the end. Somehow. And a man’s gotta do what a man’s gotta do. On another note… well, why not. Just spill it. This was all just a test of the emergency broadcast system.

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2001 Apr 13

Irresistible Force

Adding more shit to the crapper known as the Internet.

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2001 Apr 14

Piss and Vinegar (I Am the Anonymous Coward)

The Free Speech Movement at Berkeley. Rescind SP-1/SP-2 and restore affirmative action. Macs vs Wintel, the neverending saga. (The penguin hides in waiting.) Flame people who send essentialist lists of Filipino and Filipino-American characteristics until their keyboards catch on fire.

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2001 Apr 15

The Colon

This family thing is really getting to me. Maybe it’s all biological? I am a clockwork orange after all….

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2001 Apr 16

When?

Snow in April.

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2001 Apr 18

Accumulata

I really think I hate being happy. (“Life. Hate it or loathe it, you can’t ignore it.”) Some other random things that I must dump out of my brain before they contaminate everything.

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2001 Apr 21

Shrugging Off Existentialism

Philosophy and abstractions. Low self-esteem due to a superiority complex. The balance of opposing forces. The mammalian inability to be precise. Why can’t I be normal?

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2001 Apr 22