tags: myth of Sisyphus
2000
July
- 2000 Jul 10
- I Am Too Happy to Know What Time It Is
See the problem here is that Sisyphus is cheating. It diminishes the true (futile) achievement. Fuck it all.
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- Resignation
I don't know why I didn't feel so bad today. Maybe I've resigned myself to my fate. Maybe e-mailing everybody and their mom let me vent a little. I mean, sure, I balked a little when I saw [redacted]'s e-mail sitting in my inbox. [I was] afraid. But [reading it] I didn't feel much, just a [light touch] of regret. I've no intention of returning to L.A. any time soon. As I've said, I've begun to equate it with happiness and [also] with being trapped.
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2001
February
- 2001 Feb 10
- High
I want to yell obscenities, not because I'm pissed off or anything, I just think that the world is deserving of obscenities.
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2006
July
- 2006 Jul 27
- falling from grace
spun like fine threads
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of fraying axons clasping like hands upon
curled, crackly dendrites
like a mad forest of electrical wiring
exploding in a kind of chemical glee
2007
February
- 2007 Feb 10
- a summary of the year thus far
A lot of random little things have happened in the past month and a half that have really sent my brain reeling. In some ways, it feels like Christmas was just a little while ago, when I was wallowing in an irrational, meaningless episode of depression, and ever since it’s been an emotional rollercoaster.
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July
- 2007 Jul 25
- Burdens
The though was "betrayal"
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or maybe it was "onus"
The unpayable debt, the blood price
(And if I paid it, would I be free?)
My memories are of Atlas lifting the world on
his shoulders
Sisyphus rolling up the Stone.
The karyatid crushed beneath the load…
August
- 2007 Aug 7
- purpose
Hoping that when I find myself face-to-face with an ICBM with a neutron bomb payload, I won't have to say the same thing
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2008
September
- 2008 Sep 2
- now I definitely can't sleep
I think I was supposed to learn something from this. I wish I knew what it was, though.
2015
December
- 2015 Dec 30
- Space Taoism
Given the fact that the Dark Side of the Force (as the Sith, the Empire, or the First Order) always build a planet-destroying weapon that has a single point of failure and the Light Side of the Force (as the Jedi Council, the Rebel Alliance, or the Resistance) always manages to destroy it, I've started to see "Star Wars" as a version of the myth of Sisyphus.
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