tags: hopeless

2000

July

2000 Jul 23

Question

But, question, should I spend any more time with [redacted]? At this ridiculous distance, there is really no hope, but, hell, I can't let go. I am compsing an e-mail in my mind as [I write this]. I will feel so lost if I just let go like that.

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2002

December

2002 Dec 19

Only This and Nothing More

To all the girls I’ve loved before….

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2003

March

2003 Mar 5

There Is No Hope

It is all meaningless distraction. Samsara. It is the state of nothingness that I seek.

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July

2003 Jul 22

I am an Angry Drunk

Help me! I broke apart my insides….

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2010

March

2010 Mar 13

offline

One of the other reasons why playing Final Fantasy XIII has been therapeutic to my mind is that I don't have to be online to play it. I don't have to read the idiocy that is part and parcel of World of Warcraft's Trade Chat, where racism, homophobia, and misogyny are frequent features. I don't feel the need to Command-Tab over to some social media site and read about atheists bashing Christians, Ayn Rand-inspired insanity, and people jumping all over other people who happen to react viscerally to racist terms, even when they realize it's being used ironically, and not in a malicious manner at all. Instead, all I have to do is watch the pretty animation and mash on a limited number of buttons.

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