mahiwaga

I'm not really all that mysterious

on-going

I am so tired but I can’t sleep. Wonderful.

posted by Author's profile picture mahiwaga

who's going to watch you die

I think the worst part about watching death—even just the death of an ill-tempered and anxious dog who lived a long life of almost 15 years, who had deteriorated to the point where he couldn’t even stand up to take a drink of water or even to move out of his own filth—is that you know for a fact it’s going to happen again and again, unless you happen to go first.

I have seen a lot of people die under my care. And the deaths of friends younger than me have been difficult to bear even though I did not witness their final moments. And I dread it more and more, even knowing that’s just what the future holds.

Death Cab for Cutie • What Sarah Said
posted by Author's profile picture mahiwaga

some say because it's over

When my cousin died all of the sudden without warning about seven years ago just after we started reconnecting, I listened to this song a lot.

Hooverphonic • The Kiss

Some say because it’s over
we should be sad, but that’s not true
‘cause death may seem something nasty
but it belongs to me and you

Don’t try to avoid your destiny
Accept this kiss with dignity
In this embrace you’ll find relief
Get rid of all your grief

Some say because it’s over, we should be…
Some say because it’s over, we should be…
Some say because it’s over, we should be…
Some say because it’s over, we should be free!

I think I want this song played at my funeral.

posted by Author's profile picture mahiwaga