Thinking about the last three months, it’s kind of crazy how much has happened to me.

I’ve visited a lot of places, some of which I’ve been before but hadn’t been back to in a long time, others which I’ve seen for the very first time. I’ve met up with a lot of people—old friends, family members who I haven’t heard from in a while, and some really cool new people whom I wish I could spend a lot more time getting to know.

From the highest highs of being inspired by someone to keep dreaming big and to never lose hope to the lowest lows of worrying about my mortality and the mortality of everyone I have ever loved, to the bittersweetness of knowing that someone really liked me once upon a time but I totally failed to act upon it, and to the joy and sadness of getting to hang out of my oldest friend in the world because his dad had just had a stroke, to being witness to the happiness of my college roommate getting married and to getting to be part of my cousin’s wedding party and his multiple celebrations, and to helping bear my uncle’s body to his final rest in such a beautiful place, it’s been a wild ride. I never want it to end, but I’ve been around long enough to realize that all good things must eventually come to an end.

I’ve had some crazy hopes that I know will never come to pass, but that’s OK. You can’t lose what you never had in the first place. I am learning to take things day-by-day, hour-by-hour and trying to be present in the moment and be present for everyone I care about. I will fail at times, but I will always try.

I’ll always have regrets, some over things long since past, some more recent. I am also still learning to take chances and go with what feels right without thinking too hard and overanalyzing. After all this time, I’ve realized that it’s better to regret screwing up than to regret not doing anything.

As I’ve been reminded, there’s still time. It may be running out minute-by-minute, but I can’t lie down and stop just yet.

“Only hope can keep me together. Love can mend your life but love can break your heart.”