I started typing this in, but then I thought that I should write, but then again… ah, what a conundrum. I’m torn between pen and paper vs. keyboard and monitor. The former has [the] advantage of the satisfaction of generating a sizable mass of dead tree and the ability to peruse my jotting without needing electricity. The [latter] is advantageous in as much as I’d like to HTMLize my thoughts and present them to the wwworld… but then again, that might not be such a great idea. I’ve been saying that my thoughts go faster using keyboard and monitor than they do with pen and paper, but I suppose I could fix that with more practice. And I suppose it’s a little more authentic with all these scribbled out mistakes. Man, my penmanship has degraded rather markedly.

There was a point to this. I didn’t not intend to just merely ramble…

Here we go…

The drive to create has always been pretty strong in me, which is unfortunate because…

1. I am not a woman.
2. I am somewhat lacking in general dexterity.

I realize these merit explanations.

As for the first point, I feel (though, because of the very fact that I am not a woman, the probabilty of being wrong is high) that had I the opportunity to create and nurture life, I might have abandoned this quest for artistic persistence—now obviously [women] can be artists too, but I am only speaking for my (hypothetical) self.

The second point may actually be more obtuse, but I say merely because it has rather limited by choices in which fields I might pursue to achieve my goals. I probably wouldn’t make a good carpenter, I’ve probably satisfactorily proven I can’t play musical instruments, nor dance. This leads me to this: writing.

Of course, there is always writing software, undeniably a rather curious art (which many would be horrified to see as such) or computer graphics. But these two are much more difficult in terms of satisfaction, I think.

Well, I thought this would be more erudite, or at least more important. But there we have it. I must create.

(Oh yeah, that’s what I wanted to talk about: the influence of Legos and Play-Doh….)