faded memories half a lifetime away
did I dare, did I dream?
Can I pay that price?
Turn the inside of my soul to the fire
let this aching pain tear at my heart
like some rabid dog gone amok
like piranhas shredding through living flesh

I will bear it, come what may,
this solitude, this uncertainty
  (We were made to sufer, it seems to be our lot in life.)

Bear the Eternal Wheel.  The Wheel of Fortune
    The Spindle of the Fates…

      Like Christ bore the Cross
      Like Atlas bore the Weight of the World

(This place, unreachable, untouchable,
  like stars red-shifting, only a memory of their light

    The hidden, the secret.

    The fractal pattern, the probabilty distribution
    The S-shaped curve, this Matrix.)

                                      and what is up, what is down
                                      what is coming, what is going?