Here it is, 1:30 a.m., and I need to wake up in 4 hours.

The conclusion I came to tonight is that I have to learn to allow change to happen—that’s the only way I will progress and grow as a human being. This means not being afraid.

I’ve known this for a long time, and yet I still can’t seem to internalize it: the only sure thing about luck is that it will change.

I think I might actually get somewhere if I can stop believing that I am hopelessly doomed.