It is funny how much a simple change in someone’s Friendster status can influence my day.

Not that I was actually pursuing Chr in a coherent fashion, so I don’t feel like I have the right to be disappointed about anything. It’s just been the way my life has been trending anyway.

I will grant that the thought of spending another 20-30 years all by myself is a little unnerving, but if that’s the way things are supposed to be, that’s the way they’re going to be, I guess.

[Redacted] did probably unwittingly give me a little smidgen of hope last week. Unfortunately, I wasn’t at the right place at the right time. As usual.

Everything seems so far away these days. I don’t know why I even keep hoping.

Originally posted on Starlight and Gravity