mahiwaga

I guess I’m addicted. I told myself that I would stop blogging, that all I’ve been spewing is angst, guilt-ridden, self-pitying, depressing, angst, and no one wants to hear it.

I am so alone in this world that I wonder if anyone except my mother will show up at my funeral.

But, as I’ve said before, the music helps.

Everything will be OK. I really believe that.

This song reminds me of this poem

Far away
This ship is taking me far away
Far away from the memories
of the people who care if I live or die

Starlight
I will be chasing your starlight
until the end of my life
I don’t know if it’s worth it anymore

And hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
you in my arms

My life
You electrify my life
Let’s conspire to re-ignite
all the souls that would die just to feel alive

But I’ll never let you go
if you promise not to fade away
Never fade away

Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
you in my arms

Far away
The ship is taking me far away
Far away from the memories
of the people who care if I live or die

I’ll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away

Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Yeah
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms

I just wanted to hold

Originally posted on Messages in a Klein Bottle

I don’t know why
but I cant seem to find the right melody today
I can’t make the words fit how I feel
I don’t know when
was the last time that I slept the whole night through
and when morning comes around I feel tired

I woke up from the strangest dream
with a dancing dog and a beauty queen
they said nothing, nada, niente
I’m empty

But you’re here and I’m here
so I stop complaining. It could be raining
and I see the answer in your eyes.
You’re here and I’m here
I keep on singing, just keep on singing
Singing

Do you know why
I can’t seem to find the right melody today?
Can’t make the words fit how I feel
Do you know when
was the last time that I slept the whole night through?
Another morning comes around, I feel tired

I drive down to the rodeo
Gonna ride a bull in a video
But nothing, nada, niente.
I’m still empty

But you’re here and I’m here
so I stop complaining. It could be raining
and I see the answer in your eyes
You’re here and I’m here
I keep on singing just keep on singing
Singing singing singing

Originally posted on Messages in a Klein Bottle

I feel so fucking hopeless.

Originally posted on Messages in a Klein Bottle