I have finally started transcribing journal entries and poems that I have scrawled into random notebooks over the years. Some of these entries have required lots of editing and some of these entries I can't date precisely, but there's something that appeals to the hoarder in me to pile all of these scraps into a single heap.

Mephisto broke for some reason. It may have been the plugin that I was experimenting with. But even when I took it out again, it stayed broken. I kept getting the dreaded 500 error. So I did a clean re-install. The blog itself is now still accessible (although I moved it to chaosanddisorder.net.) But I can’t get into the admin page.

I feel so fucking hopeless.

This song reminds me of this poem

I don’t know why
but I cant seem to find the right melody today
I can’t make the words fit how I feel
I don’t know when
was the last time that I slept the whole night through
and when morning comes around I feel tired

I guess I’m addicted. I told myself that I would stop blogging, that all I’ve been spewing is angst, guilt-ridden, self-pitying, depressing, angst, and no one wants to hear it.

Not particularly edifying

Abandoning my kludgy homebrew blogging system and adopting Blosxom

That’s all she wrote.