I am still puzzling over the curious silence of God. Is it evolution on my part? Is my faith somehow bankrupt? I have to tell you, I was extremely upset with the Vatican’s pronunciation of Catholicism being the only path to salvation. I am glad that Cardinal Mahoney is still supporting interfaith dialogue.

Much of the doctrine of organized religion is becoming increasingly nonsensical to me. It, for example, astounds me that wars of religion could be fought over esoterica. Of course, I realize [that] in truth, [the religious issues] were mostly cover for ethnic and cultural hatred.

Even my allegiance to dogma is eroding. I’m beginning to find that I don’t necessarily have to accept that Jesus was the Son of God in order to accept the validity of his message.

I had formulated a rough summary of the main points:

1. Live like this, and you’ll stop killing each other/stop wanting to kill each other.
2. Tradition and the authorities are often filled with bullshit.
3. Free will is paramount. You can’t follow blindly. You must make tough ethical decisions at every turn. You must think for yourself.

Perhaps it is time to re-read the New Testament. What a time to be having a crisis of faith.

Focusing. What do I want to do with my life. I can only see this far: living life in the interstices, whenever I can grab time. The preciousness of time ought to heighten my enjoyment of things.